It's All about the Heart

"It is only with the heart that one can see right; what is essential is invisible to the eye." - Antoine de Saint-Exupéry

Thursday, March 30, 2006

Stole a Quiz from Jon

I'm waiting for my next class so I decided to answer a few questions from this quiz taken from Jon's blog...

Take the quiz:
What sex dessert are you? *PICS*

strawberries
your classy...you like it nice...but simple...you know just what you want, where you want it...IN YOUR CHAMPAGNE!

Quizzes by myYearbook.com -- the World's Biggest Yearbook!

Monday, March 27, 2006

Sweetness of my Weekend

Hi everybody.....
Last weekend has been a very very memorable one for me...for the very first time in my life, I felt the vulnerability of being a woman. My friends were the ones who keep on telling me that I have a very strong personality. According to them, it correlates why I've been single for a very long time, that personality scares men away. On the other hand, I don't really take the comment seriously. I am the eldest among my siblings and I tend to have this "superwoman" attitude that I can do everything, indeed, very independent...I never thought that one day, a man will come along that can break the toughness of my heart....

Robbie, the guy I met three months ago came here in San Diego for a visit. We've been chatting for hours and hours everyday since then. It came to a point that he decided that he's going to start courting me. And he did after a month of our endless chats. He left San Francisco Friday noon. He was stuck in traffic so the expected 8:00 PM became 12 MN. I cooked dinner for him, sinigang na baboy, he's favorite food. I also made some lychee/agar-agar juice for dessert. I've fallen asleep while waiting for him. I'm so nervous of course because, it was the first time I'm gonna see this person in flesh. It's just awkward that I've known almost everything about him through that short span of time and it's really weird feeling that he's actually gonna be here. Anyways, he called me that he's already at the 805 freeway so I directed him towards the route going to our place. He was driving this white Honda Prelude, I told him that we need to look for a parking space around the apartment complex. It was so tensed and shaking like crazy! He asked me to hop in the car so we could find a spot. I giggle a lot if I'm nervous trying to cover the shakiness of my entire being!....After 30 minutes, we found a space. Golly! He's actually here!!!
He's not good looking I will definitely say that..he's an average Joe that intrigues me a lot...I saw his pic in friendster and myspace but it's just different to see someone in flesh.
He did like my sinigang though. I dunno if he's just being nice or what but heck! I was so nervous still....
My parents told me to just ask him to stay in our place instead of checking in at a nearby inn.
So there, we sat at the opposite side of the couch...really really awkward moment there I'm telling you... he's staring at me and I can feel that I am starting to melt away. He moved next to me. He muttered the words "I love you". I was blushing like crazy! I can't even look at his eyes!... He then held my hand and kissed it. Awww....I kinda like it coz he was such a gentleman! very manly! hahahaha....
He muttered the words "I love you" for the second time and I told him to stop staring at me coz it was so uncomfortable....He was giggling because he said, I looked so cute when I'm nervous....Anyways, he moved closer towards me and kissed me. It was great! I then told him that I'm gonna go back to sleep and I'm just gonna see him the next morning....

The next morning....
He texted me...my dad called me on my fone teasing me that I need to wake up and cook breakfast....We went to eat some Vietnamese food coz he said he's craving for their Pho...Anyways, he's been telling not to be nervous. Oh my gosh! I was so embarassing coz I was so clumsy! I spilled the sauce all over the table! He was smiling and telling me how cute I am with my clumsiness!...
After our lunch, I finaly got over the nervousness...and I was back to being myself... the jolly and talkative Abby...
We went to the 4 malls!...He's such a gentleman, he opens and closes the car door for me...I feel like a realy lady when I'm with him...I never felt anything like this before even with my ex....He constantly kisses and holds my hand while were driving....
Around 5 PM that day, he asked me if we can go to the Albertson's grocery store before we go my churmate's birthday party. He asked me to look for something and left me... After several minutes, I heard them page me... "Paging customer named Abby, please proceed to Customer Service". Guess what???? There he is holding a dozen roses!!!!!! He's so sweet!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wasn't able to hold my feelings any longer coz the sign that I asked for actually happened!....He said "I love you",kissed me, and I kissed him back and said "I love you back!"....

Here's the funny thing though....everybody! I mean everybody! my relatives, my churmates were so intrigue with the guy I'm with....You can see the looks that just make me giggle everytime...

It was very sad when he left yesterday....

A long distance love affair...Am I gonna make it this time????
I miss him already :(

Thursday, March 23, 2006

This is so nerve-wracking

One more day........

I don't wanna think about it anymore...
So...yeah, I have one more test to go...

Brain drain.. that's what you call it...After spending 6 hours yesterday, here I am trying to extract everything out from my brain. Oh well....

I'm not making any sense here....

Got to go and grab some lunch....

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Awww

I had a very nice night last night plus a very good night sleep....
He serenaded me with all my favorite love songs as he plays the guitar...Awwwwww...By doing so, he just swept me off my feet.....

He sang while I snooze...how's that huh???
I hope this is it...May God send me the signs that he's the ONE...I think I've waited long enough and I deserve to be happy.

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

HE



He makes me laugh...
He does simple things that just make my day complete....
He serenades me...
He whispers sweet nothings...
He makes me think of him all the time...
He makes me include him in all my future plans...
He makes me feel complete....
He gives me that tingly feeling everytime we talk...
He puts the smile on my face...

I never felt anything like this before....
Am I in love for the first time?????

I can't wait....He'll be here this weekend... He'll be spending 8 hours driving from San Francisco to San Diego...isn't that sweet???
I'm excited and I'm nervous coz I really have no clue on what to expect....

But I am really sure that this feeling that I am feeling right now is more that "LIKE".....

Monday, March 20, 2006

Psst

My back hurts.....
Am I getting old or what?

Anyways, my aunt asked me if I could be a counselor for the upcoming Kid's Camp. It'll be sometime in July... If I'm not mistaken, it'll be July 24 to 28, the wee of my birthday. I would really love to go but I still need to check my schedule coz I might need to take some prenursing classes this summer.

I'll be back to school tomorrow! Yey, I guess... LOL
A month and a half more to go....can't wait!

Life is good!

Have a great week everybody!!!

Saturday, March 18, 2006

My other side

My friends and I went out yesterday for St. Patrick's day...
Eventhough I only ha 2 hours of sleep yesterday, I can't believe I still have enough strength left to last til 4AM this morning.

Gal pals, Chissa, Kate, and I went to Pacific Beach for some partying. PB is the place where most college students hang out. We reached the place aroung 11 PM and waited in line for an hour to get in. The place was packed! I had a great time! When the DJ played the song "My Humps" by Black Eyed Peas even made the party more exciting! Hahaha... I really can't help myself but to go with the beat everytime I hear that song no matter what I'm doing! LOL...

We left the place around 1:30 AM and hopped to a different place. This time, the bouncers allowed us to get in for FREE!!!! Yahoo!! We stayed there til they are about to close. We decided to eat at Denny's after we got so freaking tired of dancing. We chatted there for couple of hours and parted ways around 4AM. I still didn't go to bed after that. I chatted with someone til it was I think around 6 AM....I finally gave up took a snooze but around 7AM, my coworker started calling me asking if I can come in.

The last time I was out that late was 3 years ago when I used to sneak out of the house around 12 AM and just hang out with my friends.

I really had a great time last night. Twas my first time to go clubbing here in the US. I was just so curious that I tried it. I am not really into "night life" as most people know, I would rather stay at home and get all the sleep that I can have. It was just crazy coz I'm a bit paranoid about GHB's and stuff after learning it from my Drugs and Behavior class....Actually, those guys who were standing in front of us were smoking weed and gees! it stinks! We were teasing each other that we're already HIGH for just smelling that second hand smoke. I was a bit shy to dance on the dance floor but after a while I got used to it already. One guy started to dance with me, but later on, he creeps me out that we got out and moved to a different area inside the club. Then another guy started dancing with me again and he's alright. Then there came this cute tall Caucasian guy, he's really really cute! Hahahaha....So that's how you do sticky eye contacts huh????? LOL. Anyways, I didn't do anything silly and kept being a good girl....The experience was so much fun! I never realized that I'll be enjoying it this much... Twas a great exercise!!!! Bye bye calories after a few hours of dancing!....

Anyways, school will be starting again next week and I didn't do any reading assignments yet. Gees, I realized that I have three exams on Thursday and I just spent my whole spring break, chatting on the fone!...

Enjoy the rest of the weekend!

Friday, March 17, 2006

Happy Clover Day




I'm going to wear green so that nobody's gonna pinch me! LOL
!

*cheers* to all Irish out there!

Thursday, March 16, 2006

St. Patrick's

Yeah! that's tomorrow.
My friend called me so we might go out for some Irish favorites! hahaha!
Well, people who loves drinking will have an excellent excuse to drink and be merry, intoxicating themselves with alcohol for one full day! *Cheers*

Spring break's almost over...

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

Food Craving

I wanna eat some tortilla chips with spinach dip.....

I need to some major house cleaning sometime next week. How am I gonna do that??? I'm gonna busy with school and work again???? I am expecting a visitor so yah know...Half of me is excited.. the other half is so nervous! Waaaahhhhh

Monday, March 13, 2006

Spring break, BAby!

Yes... it is...

but heck! my sched is hectic!

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

Mommy's Birthday

It's my mom's birthday today.....
Happy Birthday, Mom! I love you!

If I'm nt mistaken, she turned 43 today...I really have no clue how old she is. It's funny coz when I'm asked about my mom and dad's birthdates, all I know were the month and the dates but the year??? nope.. I still have to call them up to ask them what year they were born. It's not that I don't care, I just really have a problem with my short term memory (LOL! excuses!)

Wow, I haven't blogged in a while... so what's new????

I received a letter from Palomar College and I will be starting the program on August 21st(hmmm is that right?. Anyways, I'm sure I'm going to have a busy summer coz I have to attend the orientation and I think I also have to take some prep classes such as pharmacology before Fall semester starts. Actually, I prayed to God asking for a sign coz I don't know which school to go. And guess what? He did show it to me!.. so there... no doubt I will be attending Palomar. I will be working my ass off, too....because I wasn't able to get any financial aid for academic year 2006-2007 because of my bachelor's degree so I need to save some money in order to lessen my school debt.

I will be calling the nursing office sometime next week regarding immunizations and also I need to follow up my admission to the school, turn in my transcript and get a school ID. Good thing it's Spring Break. I dunno if my friends and I are going somewhere because they're so darn busy.

I'm under this "job hunting" mode again. I would like to get a job related to having a Psychology degree. But nursing aide will also do.

I've been watching the first season of Pinoy Big Brother....I was just into Sam Milby lately (it started when I saw Close to You). To think that even my brother bought the freaking DVD coz of curiousity. It's very entertaining! Good thing it's not a waste....

Thanks also to Jezz for burning several OPM cd's for me....See how I miss the Philippines, I am so hooked! I don't listen to the radio no more for what's the latest R&B or hiphop songs...All I hear now are music from MYMP, Cueshe, Sarah Geronimo, Nina, Christian Bautista, Rachelle Ann Go, Eric Santos, and Piolo Pascual. I also looked online for Nyoy Volante's and Sam Milby's to add to my collection. Moreover, I love my roaming fone coz it reminds me of the Philippines plus all text messages I receive everyday from friends who never forget to say HI or maybe forward a really cute message. It's just great!

It's all good!

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

Commitment Phobic

What is wrong with me?????
It's just that when someone is starting to be really really really close to me in a very romantic way, I'm starting to push that person away. I "think" I really liked the guy but sometimes, I just wanna get rid of the mushiness that has been happening, trying to ignore the person.

I guess, I'm scared to take my chances and trying to avoid the "pain" that may come with having a "real" relationship.

Or is this just part of PMSing????

Nah. I don't think so.

I need to fix myself huh?

1st day of March. The days are going too fast without me even noticing it. This is bad...I need to savor every single minute, hour, and day....coz life is short.

"Delight yourself to the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart"