Uhuh

Friendster and Myspace can be fun at times... but sometimes (taking about my current lovelife status) can cause a fight. It's just that, you know, ex's and stuff like that..."who viewed me" buttons....questions that are asked in a typical bf/gf conversation... one thing you know.. BOOM...LQ!!!

I know myself as a person who knows how to handle myself in any given situation... but one trait I never thought that I would definitely exposed out in the open is having INSECURITY... For reals! Sometimes, I don't even know myself anymore...Is this really me???? coz I never had one like this before....

For all gals out there, you know what I mean right???
You sometimes, okay fine, most of the time, compare yourself with the EX(s) and trying to figure out at the back of your head, how you can show your partner that you're better off... Looking for flaws, imperfections while you totally brag about yourself that you're the best!....OMG! Sometimes, when I think about this kind of stuff, I can't help but say that I'm stupid in a way....

I'm trying to learn to control my emotions, you know, to get carried away and stuff like that...
Now, I understand my friends who before I thought were just over reacting to situations.... Now, I'm wearing the same shoes....If only guys can figure out what's inside a woman's head and vice versa, I bet it'll be just perfect... but hey! that's where excitement comes in right?

Underneath the Waves

From time to time, when my boyfriend and I talk, he sometimes refers me to songs and lets me figure what their message is...Oh by the way, did I mention that he's a drummer of a band? Yeah, he's really into the art of music....Today, he told me to listen to this song by Hale and told me that the meaning of this song refers to his true feelings towards me...

the stars beneath the sky
they tell me you're a secret
and everytime i wake up in the morning
rain is falling down on me
I feel free

you caught me by surprise
I ask you to believe me
without a lie
we'll never have to say or feel we're sorry
dont say we're sorry
soon you'll see

I'm learning
I'm learning you now

Stars fading
free falling into you

this time I'm sure what I'm looking for
and that's what I want you to know
And I won't ever let you go

Underneath the waves
I can feel you underneath the waves

I'm learning
I'm learning you now

Stars fading
falling into you

this time I'm sure what I'm looking for
and that's what I want you to know
And I won't ever let you go

It's all been said and done to me
I know it
Just let me have a chance to prove my cause
and i don't know what lies ahead for us
in any road I'll let you come my way

And I'm ready for you now
be ready for me now
Show me love

Neglect

Howdy Ho!!!
What the heck happened to me, I used to be a blog adcit before and now, it's just that I've been very very very very very very very very very very lazy to update my blog.

Anyways, yeah, a LOT of stuff has been happening lately. Life changing stuff, if you know what I mean.

I would like to thank all my friends who gave me warm and sincere words of encourangement as my family go through this very tough time...

My dad had a ruptured artery and subarachnoid hemmorrhage in his brain Monday after Father's Day. I was having my physical exam when my fone rang n times. I ignored it thinking that it can wait. When I got the chance to hear my VM, it was my mom calling from the ambulance. My dad had a stroke at work, had a seizure and passed out. I was in a hurry to get to the hospital as soon as I heard it. It was so unbelievable at first, thinking that my dad even went jogging and swimming with us that night before. Seeing my dad lying unconsciously with all the apparatus attached to him was just so unbearable. My mom and I talked to the neurosurgeon and he needs to have the coiling for his aneurysm or else another stroke may happen and this time the doctors assured that he's not gonna survive. After waiting til 11 PM that day, the surgery was successfull. The next day, the doctor told us that he's having hydrocephalus and they might need to drill a hole in his head to suck the water out. One of the complications of the stroke. We prayed a lot that God will heal him so that they won't be needing to drill the hole. Thank God He answered our prayers. He stayed in the ICU for two weeks and then he was trasfered at the regular acute care for 5 days.

So far, he's doing alright. He's under coumadine treatment for his blood pressure. He had a DVT, too that will take 3 to 6 months to melt all the clot that formed in his stomach. (So many medical terms, huh?)
All his doctors were telling him how a lucky guy he is. He doesn't have the usual physical deformation of his body due to the stroke. Everybody was telling him that he looks so normal. His strength was normal, his reflexes, everything except for his blood pressure are all normal. It was a miracle.

We're still holding on to our prayer that may God heal him completely....

On the other hand, seeing someone you love in a very critical condition is very agonizing. Having the support of our family and friends helped us strengthen our faith in God.

As we know, dads are the breadwinners. I admit that it's really a big loss in our family as my dad go through disability for the meantime. But you know what, this is where my family has been tested in unity. Family that works as a team. Though some of our dreams has been blurred due to this event in our life, I know that God has better plan for us.

Sometimes, changes can be really hard but "All things work together for good".