Colour Everywhere

I used to see in black and white
Never something in between
Waitin' on the love of my life
To come into my dreams
Everything in shades of gray
Never any blues or greens
I needed someone else to turn to
Someone who could help me learn to see
All the beauty that was waiting for me


You...you put the blue back in the sky
You put the rainbow in my eyes
The silver lining in my prayers
And now there's colour everywhere
You put the red back in the rose
Just when I needed it the most
You came along to show you care
And now there's colour everywhere


My life was so predictable
Never any mystery
But ever since you shined the light
All of that is history
Now I have a hand to hold
And a reason to believe
There's something in my life worth living for
I was hanging 'round just wishing on a star
To put the happiness back in my heart and


You...you put the blue back in the sky
You put the rainbow in my eyes
The silver lining in my prayers
And now there's colour everywhere
You put the red back in the rose
Just when I needed it the most
You came along to show you care
And now there's colour everywhere


I left those lazy days behind me
Never to return again
Now they're just a faded memory
'Cause baby it's so clear to see
The beauty that was waiting for me


You...you put the blue back in the sky
You put the rainbow in my eyes
The silver lining in my prayers
And now there's colour everywhere
You put the red back in the rose
Just when I needed it the most
You came along to show you care
And now there's colour everywhere


You care and now there's colour everywhere
There's colour everywhere
There's colour everywhere

Have a Great Weekend

We're looking for a house. The owner will turn our apartment complex into condominiums and they gave us one year to look for a place or either buy the transformed condo.
The cost of living here in San Diego is way way WAY too expensive. So, we're still praying that God will help us to find a house that we can afford. I am willing to relocate yet most of the family members wants to stay here...

I'm just thinking if I can manage to work full time and going to nursing school full time. Most of my friends who's doing the program quits their job. But I can't afford to be jobless without any source of income. I mean, I have to contribute to the financial needs of the family, right? I need to talk to my parents about this issue. I will be getting my BA degree in Psych on May. I am starting nursing school on Fall. But if I have to give up nursing school and just find a decent job to support my family, am I willing to give up on that dream???? Or, is it better if I sacrifice a whole lot of my time to If ever I'm gonna be a selfish one, all I ask is two years free from any financial obligations because I also have to figure out how to support myself through that two years. But if I'm just gonna turn down my nursing opportunity, I will be the most responsible daughter and a sister providing financial support to the family. Am I making any sense here????

I better start a sincere talk regarding this...

Just thinking

I haven't been posting coz I've been lazy....I bet that's one valid excuse....

I'm still busy with school and with my job.
I am working full time and going to school full time... Go figure how many hours of sleep do I get in one day???? I'll be lucky to get 5!
During the night, I keep myself busy with the fone... Another factor why I'm getting lesser and lesser sleep. I'm not complaining but it's so not helping me and I need to figure out a plan to do everything yet still satisfying my body's needs...

I broke up with my boyfriend last weekend. He didn't take it the way I thought he would. According to my friends, he was so pissed off and had been drinking too much since then. I know it's my fault why he's been like that. But I can't do anything about my feelings that I have to vent it out.

I called him two days ago to ask how things are going....He sounded so bitter but I was able to explain to him what happened. He understand me and we ended up still friends (I guess).. He's back to texting me again everyday which is a good sign. I told him, that if ever he visits CA, he's free to give me a call so we can meet up.

I guess, that was the only highlight of my week....

One lazy blogger

Yup! I am one lazy blogger....

I need to make time for this huh?

Pardon the words

What the freaking crap!

What have I been doing??????
I'll spare you the details....

Hitting on me?

Remember I posted yesterday how my day went... I've been under that "topak" situation til I went to bed.
Due to it, another scenario had occured that I felt guilty about.

I need some male POV's regarding this... I really wanted to tell this dilemma to my dear male counter part, froggy buddy yet I didn't get any chance...For sure, he's gonna be reading this besides my other male readers...Dear other male readers, please feel free to respond..

Anyways, I am trying to send some signals to my "so called boyfriend" who is in the Philippines right now. He's gonna be leaving soon and prolly be around Greece coz he's a merchant marine. It was Valentine's Day right? Didn't greet him or whatsoever but sent a text message telling him that I'm having a hard time dealing with our situation. I did not say anything about a break up nor a "cool-off". It's just that I seldom reply to his text messages and I always try to ignore it. I'm worried coz if we break up, he has this tendency to undergo depression (I mean it's normal but this guy really takes everything seriously and I don't want him to think that I am brutally assaulting him, do u get what I mean?) He's gonna be sailing for a year and I don't want him to feel super depress and lonely coz I added the issue of the coolinf off system. He loves me so much! and I guess, I agreed to be his girlfriend coz he's been waiting for me for almost 10 years! I know that it's unfair coz I'm not in love with him....

Then remember this guy I met through a friend?
Yeah, I think I'm starting to fall for him...I don't want to cheat with my boyfriend that's why I need to get the strings unattached just in case that I suddenly realize that I am falling in love with guy2. I just met this guy a month ago yet I feel the connection...you know what I mean? He gives me goosebumps and weird heartbeats everytime we talk. He said he's willing to wait....

Here's the deal though...I am a novice when it comes to relationships coz I never had real one yet. I've known guy1 for sooooo long and I can really say that he loves me. I've known guy2 for a month and I can't I mean I'm still in doubt if he really loves me (I feel it's genuine though). I have a connection with guy2 and really really bored when I'm with guy1. I'm so confused...Am I being selfish here???? I can't keep both of them neither have one the other as my back up just in case the other doesn't workout, I know that... but heck! I think I'd rather be single coz I don't have to deal with this no more!....My bestfriends were telling me to stick with guy1 coz at least I have the clue how his mind works and stuff...compare for guy2 in which we're still in that "getting to know you" stage!....

Golly! can I just fall in love with one of my closest guy friends??? and hope that this guy friend will also fall in love with me???? I just wish that I can have access to that "EASY" button so I don't have to face this nerve wracking dilemma...

What is up? This is so weird coz I rarely get guys hitting on me. I mean, I do flirt every now and then.. but it's so weird when all of a sudden , guys are starting to hit on me. What I'm trying to say is Im not used to it and have no clue how to react...I don't want to have that snobbish image if ever I try to push them away. I need some tips on how to tell them in a nice way how to "get the heck out of my face!"..I'm just gonna quote what my friend told me "Abby, ang tindi...ang haba ng buhok mo!"

Happy Heart's Day

Yeah.. that's pretty much it...

I am under the "toyo" mood since last night before I went to bed......

One Question

One question I encountered today: "So what are you going to do tomorrow for Valentine's Day?"


The heck do they care!

Hahaha... I'm just kidding...I'm not gonna do anything special tomorrow aside from wearing red....I'll be in school and I have plenty of studying to do. Unless, someone's gonna surprise me with some cool stuff then that'll be really great!....

I'm so happy!!!!
It's weird.. but heck! I am happy!

I'm not even on "emote" mood

I'm not on "emote" mood, Jovee! okay!

LOL

My siblings and I are planning to watch "Close to You" two weeks from now. It's nice to know that Tagalog movies are starting to be shown in movie theaters here in United States. Most of all, it's nice to know that the said movie will be shown here in San Diego! Isn't that great? Yeah, usually, they only show it in Northern California and Los Angeles. My Filipino friends are already talking about it and for sure it'll be so crowded!... It'll only be shown for a couple of days though but it's all good, right?

Speaking of Valentine's Day, I have a really weird lovelife....
It's just that the person I would really love date and I've been waiting for the longest longest time seems to not have any interest in me at all....I haven't seen him in ages! I mean, the last time I saw him was Easter last year...
Then I have this so called "boyfriend" yet it feels like we're not even in the relationship.. (that's on my part though)...I am not cheating or anything but I just wanna get out of the "relationship" coz I feel that it's getting nowhere...
Also, there's this guy of course who as of this moment makes me feel special in so many ways yet there are some issues that makes everything so complicated...

I feel that everything about my love life could have been better if my prospect do feel the same way about me then we get the chance to express it and just live happily ever after. Yet it's not that simple....

Oh well....

Heart's Day

Hmmm... just thinking...

Bored

Heck! I'm bored!

A few of my "inaanaks"

Am I getting older or what???
I miss two of these kids....

Tintin with Ninang Abby


Caleb and Auntie Abby


Anton with Ninang Abby

Blogger

I dunno if it's just me or everyone else...I've been checking my friend's blog from time to time but it seems like that this week, blogger has been down for a while...

Anyways, it's nice to know that it's up and running again so I can start lurking at my friend's thoughful entries :)

Glad to be back to normal. I told my boss to schedule me 32 hours a week but it looks like that I still work 40 hours a week although I'm only at work for 4 days. Like yesterday, I worked for 10 hours. It's crazy coz I still have to go home and study for my classes. I had a test this morning and I think I did alright. The thing about me though is if I work less hours and I get to get more time to study, I tend to slack off during the times that I am supposed to study. You know what I mean??? So this year, I will rather work more hours, so that I get to manage my time wisely coz I know that I won't be getting any extra spare time to lose just by staring at the computer monitor or snoozing under my warm comforter...So far, everything's stress free.

My brothers, my sister-in-law, and I went to see a movie last weekend. We wanted to see The Final Spear (Hmmm I dunno if this is the right title) but the movie theater only showed it for a week and that was last week. Anyways, we just watched Underworld: Evoulution and sneaked in at Narnia. We had the opportunity to do this since most people were occupied by the Superbowl so the theaters weren't crowded. By the way, the Steelers won... but heck! I still go for the Chargers! Too bad they weren't able to taste the Superbowl this year or the next years to come (Hahaha, see how pessimistic I can be with our own football team??)

What else????
Nothin' much has been going on lately.... the usual I suppose...

It freaks me out when people ask me if I found myself a man during my stay in the Philippines. Seriously, since I got back from there, a LOT of people has been asking me about it! Asking when am I gonna get married and stuff... What in the world????? My supervisor even asked me yesterday coz he said I looked so different since I got back and I have this really special glow goin... Another what in the world! I was just my usual self... Prolly, they just missed bugging and bothering me! Anyways, I'm alright coz I was able to construct a good defense for those comments....

I gotta bounce, the library is starting to get crowded!

Drugged up

I just got off my first class and I can still feel the effects of Nyquil I took last night. My eyelids are so heavy...My head is falling... and my entire mind is drifting off..clueless to what my professor has been discussing.

I had this cough for more than a month already and I think when we went to Disneyland last Saturday made it even worst. It was so cold! (Since, I got back from the Philippines, I still wasn't able to adjust myself with the weather!)Anyways, I'll be bouncing to the library after I post this entry to take a snooze....Here's one of the rides that we rode trying to make a decent pose before a last nasty loop.

Disneyland 50th Anniversary





Splash Mountain