It's All about the Heart

From the Grave

2007-07-05T10:38:00.000-07:00

Hi to everybody!

Oh my! I've missed blogging...I tried logging in yet blogger won't let me until I went and check it one more time... this time I saw that claim your old blog thing on the site so I went and claimed my old blog! So here....

I have to do plenty of revisions though here in there....
I will try to update this blog as often as I can....

I have plenty of stories to tell...

I'm coming back!

with the new ME!!!

Yoohoo!

2006-10-16T20:01:00.000-07:00

JUst dropping by to say HI to all my viewers!!!

Missing in Action

2006-08-10T18:14:00.000-07:00

Hi!!!
Miss me huh?

Anyways, I've been working like a maniac these last couple of weeks or maybe months. I even worked 16 hours in one day last month. My last paycheck reads 105 hours and that's in two weeks!!! Just enough to buy books and pay my bills...I can't even update my blog coz after I check my emails, then I'm off to bed.

I don't wanna think about my financial situation right now, but you bet! it's so freaking crazy. I spent almost $2000 already for my nursing education for this semester. Guess what??? my books??? Oh my!!! two huge boxes shipped from Amazon.com and Barnes and Noble. If I'm gonna sit down and start calculating my debts, gees, I'm gonna pass out.

School will be starting in two weeks and I dunno if I'm excited or more terrified. My professors has been emailing us already bout our reading assignments.

I am now seeing my next two years... NO LIFE! I mean it won't be the same anymore, I'll be in school for 5 days, Monday to Friday, then I'll be working weekends, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday.

Life has been very challenging for me lately....
SEriously, I've been telling my friends how, I never though I'll face these tough challenges. Being the oldest among my siblings, my responsibility to my family, being a full time student, being a mature adult with tons and tons of bills to pay, and also trying to be the best girlfriend in the world. Mahn! no kidding, it's a very tough tough tough job!....

I'll be updating my blog from time to time....I need to vent out my emotions and feelings somehow to make me calm and relaxed, in short, be de-stressed.

We'll be moving to a different apartment, too! so u know, lots and lots of packing to do...

God! please give me strength!

Uhuh

2006-07-23T17:53:00.000-07:00

Friendster and Myspace can be fun at times... but sometimes (taking about my current lovelife status) can cause a fight. It's just that, you know, ex's and stuff like that..."who viewed me" buttons....questions that are asked in a typical bf/gf conversation... one thing you know.. BOOM...LQ!!!

I know myself as a person who knows how to handle myself in any given situation... but one trait I never thought that I would definitely exposed out in the open is having INSECURITY... For reals! Sometimes, I don't even know myself anymore...Is this really me???? coz I never had one like this before....

For all gals out there, you know what I mean right???
You sometimes, okay fine, most of the time, compare yourself with the EX(s) and trying to figure out at the back of your head, how you can show your partner that you're better off... Looking for flaws, imperfections while you totally brag about yourself that you're the best!....OMG! Sometimes, when I think about this kind of stuff, I can't help but say that I'm stupid in a way....

I'm trying to learn to control my emotions, you know, to get carried away and stuff like that...
Now, I understand my friends who before I thought were just over reacting to situations.... Now, I'm wearing the same shoes....If only guys can figure out what's inside a woman's head and vice versa, I bet it'll be just perfect... but hey! that's where excitement comes in right?

Underneath the Waves

2006-07-14T20:20:00.000-07:00

From time to time, when my boyfriend and I talk, he sometimes refers me to songs and lets me figure what their message is...Oh by the way, did I mention that he's a drummer of a band? Yeah, he's really into the art of music....Today, he told me to listen to this song by Hale and told me that the meaning of this song refers to his true feelings towards me...

the stars beneath the sky
they tell me you're a secret
and everytime i wake up in the morning
rain is falling down on me
I feel free

you caught me by surprise
I ask you to believe me
without a lie
we'll never have to say or feel we're sorry
dont say we're sorry
soon you'll see

I'm learning
I'm learning you now

Stars fading
free falling into you

this time I'm sure what I'm looking for
and that's what I want you to know
And I won't ever let you go

Underneath the waves
I can feel you underneath the waves

I'm learning
I'm learning you now

Stars fading
falling into you

this time I'm sure what I'm looking for
and that's what I want you to know
And I won't ever let you go

It's all been said and done to me
I know it
Just let me have a chance to prove my cause
and i don't know what lies ahead for us
in any road I'll let you come my way

And I'm ready for you now
be ready for me now
Show me love

Neglect

2006-07-12T18:03:00.000-07:00

Howdy Ho!!!
What the heck happened to me, I used to be a blog adcit before and now, it's just that I've been very very very very very very very very very very lazy to update my blog.

Anyways, yeah, a LOT of stuff has been happening lately. Life changing stuff, if you know what I mean.

I would like to thank all my friends who gave me warm and sincere words of encourangement as my family go through this very tough time...

My dad had a ruptured artery and subarachnoid hemmorrhage in his brain Monday after Father's Day. I was having my physical exam when my fone rang n times. I ignored it thinking that it can wait. When I got the chance to hear my VM, it was my mom calling from the ambulance. My dad had a stroke at work, had a seizure and passed out. I was in a hurry to get to the hospital as soon as I heard it. It was so unbelievable at first, thinking that my dad even went jogging and swimming with us that night before. Seeing my dad lying unconsciously with all the apparatus attached to him was just so unbearable. My mom and I talked to the neurosurgeon and he needs to have the coiling for his aneurysm or else another stroke may happen and this time the doctors assured that he's not gonna survive. After waiting til 11 PM that day, the surgery was successfull. The next day, the doctor told us that he's having hydrocephalus and they might need to drill a hole in his head to suck the water out. One of the complications of the stroke. We prayed a lot that God will heal him so that they won't be needing to drill the hole. Thank God He answered our prayers. He stayed in the ICU for two weeks and then he was trasfered at the regular acute care for 5 days.

So far, he's doing alright. He's under coumadine treatment for his blood pressure. He had a DVT, too that will take 3 to 6 months to melt all the clot that formed in his stomach. (So many medical terms, huh?)
All his doctors were telling him how a lucky guy he is. He doesn't have the usual physical deformation of his body due to the stroke. Everybody was telling him that he looks so normal. His strength was normal, his reflexes, everything except for his blood pressure are all normal. It was a miracle.

We're still holding on to our prayer that may God heal him completely....

On the other hand, seeing someone you love in a very critical condition is very agonizing. Having the support of our family and friends helped us strengthen our faith in God.

As we know, dads are the breadwinners. I admit that it's really a big loss in our family as my dad go through disability for the meantime. But you know what, this is where my family has been tested in unity. Family that works as a team. Though some of our dreams has been blurred due to this event in our life, I know that God has better plan for us.

Sometimes, changes can be really hard but "All things work together for good".

Craving for Updates

2006-06-30T22:32:00.000-07:00

I'll be updating soon... There's just so many stuff going on with my life right now and it's been a major roller coaster ride. But yeah, details will be posted soon...My family and I are getting there.... trying to recover from our latest challenge in life....

I promise I'll keep you guys posted...

The Green Eyed Monster

2006-06-14T16:22:00.000-07:00

I hate to admit this... but I think the green eyed monster has been clinging to me this past week....

I bet I'm really driving my BF crazy...
But what can I do??? I can't somehow stop it!

Seriously, I have never been into a serious relationship before so I'm not really familiar with the do's and don't's of a relationship...

I need some opinions please... it it because of the distance?????

Arrgh! I don't wanna think anymore!

Immunizations

2006-06-13T17:22:00.000-07:00

Where have I been????
Well, It's been crazy...Knowing myself, having a bit of Type A personality, have to had my immunization going. Last Thursday, I called the Palomar health center asking for which shots should I need to get, they tld me to just bring my record then they'll figure it out when I meet with the nurse practioneer this week. Anyways, I also told them that I had the TB test a month ago and they said it was positive. The health people told me to get a chest X-ray to make sure I'm not carrying the disease! I called my doctor, to ask for referral. The heck!!!! they will be charging me 60 bucks just to get a freaking referral to the radiologist!...I'm not gonna pay 60 bucks for that!

I called the nursing school again asking if they can refer me to a clinic that can help me get a cheaper X-ray. They gave me the number for the Pubic Health Clinic. I went there to get the Xray, showed them my previous TB skin test and guess what the nurse told me.... "2mm indurance is not positive, you don't need to get a chest X-ray". What the!!!!
I never had a positive skin test before I told them, and this is the first time I was told a had positive. She insisted to have me take the test again. So I did. I had the reading last Monday and it was negative. Whew!

On the other hand, I was so happy coz I was able to get cheaper shots. I have to get the Hep B, MMR, and Td.. If I'm gonna get that at the nursing health clinic, it will cost me around 150 bucks. But guess what, I chatted with the Public Health nurse about the cost of education nowadays, and she gave me all three shots for 10 bucks! Smart eh! So all I have to worry now is the Varicella shot coz they don't have that in the Public Health Clinic.

In the end, I've been sick the whole weekend. I still have a slight fever today and some muscle aches. They said it's normal since I got shot with inactivated viruses! LOL.. plus I had a stomach flu, too!!!!! darn!

Oh well, I'm getting there....

I QUIT!

2006-06-01T14:58:00.000-07:00

Hahaha... I did quit my CNA job....After working for a week, I finally decided to let go...Well, it's alright....and I am really cool with that...I salute all the nursing assistants out there coz it's not an easy job. The patience and the lifting that they need to have and do, darn! never a joke!....

Well, I still have my old job though and prolly stick to it in a couple of months. I'm just gonna save some money to reduce my future student loans.

I can finally stick to my relaxing plans before nursing school starts. My brothers and I might go to Canada sometime next month... Then we also have our annual family camp. Then my boyfriend's asking if I wanna go Hawaii... Oh well, if he's making plans with that Hawaii trip then I will even love him more! hahahahaha!!!!

My family is still doing some house shopping... Hopefully, I'll be the first one to celebrate my birthday at our own crib. That'll be so great!

We've been experiencing some tough times right now (my boyfriend and I)...But it's all good, coz I get to show my sweetheart that I'm going nowhere. It's really really tough but I am so happy that I'm there with him through this very difficult moment in his life. Hahaha!!!! I realized that I'm not a bad girlfriend after all! hahahaha...I'm not bragging, he's so lucky to have me.... If only he can read this, his usual pick up line will be "Sweetheart, you're such a brag!"... I AM... :p

Ayt, gotta go and see my ortho, gees! can't wait to get rid of these braces....

Crazy Days

2006-05-28T18:17:00.000-07:00

Crazy days are here... Yes! graduation is over but heck, I've been so restless...

Two jobs, it's tiring and it kills my legs!!!!!

That's why I haven't been online updating this blog coz everytime I reach my cradle, I'm so dead tired already....

I'm planning to work as a CNA for a month then quit. Spend my whole month of July taking trips here and there... then August, hello nursing school....

CNA job, darn it! it's a hard job, I'll be lucky not to break my back...I'm trying to immunize myself with all the stinkiness I encounter every second I'm on the clock!...Ayayayay!!!

Got to go!...

Hooray!

2006-05-18T18:12:00.000-07:00

I had my last final couple of hours ago!!!!....Woohoo!!!! Semester's over and I am looking forward to a very interesting summer!!!!!!

I'll be starting my new job as a CNA on Tuesday... I'll be working full time...
On the other hand, I'm thinking if I'm gonna work still at Mickey D's...Prolly for some gas money...Gas prices are going up!!!! it's almost four bucks a gallon!!! So insane!!!!

I went to the Palomar Nursing Orientation today and seriously, I'm still overwhelmed!...Book prices, the shots, uniforms, all the expenses not mentioning the stress that I'm gonna go through once I start the program....It's scary but heck, I'm still gonna go for it! I'm still up for a challenge and will always be....

I treated myself with a new fone, I bought Nokia 6280... then sometime tomorrow, I'm gonna go ahead and buy a new digital camera. Yeah, I have so many expenses for nursing school,but hey! I need treat!.. Keeping my GPA high is not that easy and I need some kind of reinforcement...hehehe...

Have a great weekend everybody!

Hello!

2006-05-15T18:42:00.000-07:00

Hmmm.. Hi everybody!

Updates???
Well, as usual I'm busy with school and because summer's coming up, I'm busy with losing weight! Hahaha!!... It's just that everybody around me talks about it... Men I'm serious! at church, at work, my friends... everybody!...

The pressure of living near the beach, see?
Although, I am not fond of the beaches here coz it's still freaking cold even if the air temperature measures 90+ degrees...

I'm so excited for Sunday!!!!!!
I can't figure out what to wear underneath my graduation regalia! LOL...
Party!!!!

Froggy Buddy

2006-05-12T13:47:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday, Jon Magat!!!!

The Weekend

2006-05-08T15:19:00.000-07:00

My gal pals Chissa and Kate went to see the Southborder concert held at Mesa College Drive. I'm not really familiar of any of their songs but I went anyways to chill with my gals....Anyways, the concert was alright at first coz men! I'm tellin you, I don't know the songs..DUH!!! but as the night goes on, I started to become familiar of the old songs, I guess because they were the ones from way back in high school sang by the original band. Then I also didn't know that they were the ones who sang the song Rainbow, which I only heard from TFC's Sing that Song Reload. Anyways, all the girls were screaming... My friends and I were right up front and stole the band's attention. For sure, the audience started to become familiar with us because we're just screaming, singing, and dancing like crazy!... It's all good except for that mean production crew who won't allow us to take pictures of us with them. Oh well, we still disobeyed him anyways...I really like Jay's voice, so nice...

BTW, I'll be starting a new career next week....hahaha... I have my orientation for my CNA Wednesday....I'll be working there full time and part time at Mickey D's. I just need to save some money before nursing school start. Too many expenses!!!! as in too much... I didn't know that nursing school will cost that much!... I mean uniform costs 45 bucks a piece already!!!!! plus those immunizations and health exams I need to have!...

I'm getting paid more that what I expected so I really thank God for all His blessings... and oh, prolly by next month we'll be moving to our new place, we finally able to buy our very own place!!!!....
I'm thinking of getting myself a new car but I'm still thinking.. Prolly, I'm just too excited about my pay....

Gotta go back to my books....I have 2 finals tomorrow!

Some Change

2006-05-04T20:08:00.000-07:00

I need some change... I'm talking about my career life. Well, let say I am really am experiencing this so called "quarter life crisis". No kidding, I'll be getting my BAchelor's degree in less than a month and I told myself "What I'm I gonna do with it?"

Anyways, I have a job interview tomorrow. It's for a CNA job. I need this for experience.... nursing school will be starting soon!

Video of the Month

2006-04-30T20:00:00.000-07:00

I am so hooked with this song, not to mention the video... it's just so cute....

Tomorrow, Mexicans will be on hiatus... something to do with this new immigration law....oh well....

Happy Birthday

2006-04-27T21:01:00.000-07:00

It's my brother's birthday today!

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY, JIREH!

I gave him a very silly present... My mom can't stop laughing about it!

I finished typing my May availability. I'm going to turn that in tomorrow. Next month is going to be a very busy one for me. Graduation and nursing school and job hunting and Finals...yeah!

I am so lucky to have such a patient boyfriend. I mean with all the tantrums and mood swings I'm having lately, for sure no guy can keep up with that. Last night, I pushed him to his limits enough to make me feel the freezing water poured over my head as a wake up call. I never realized til then that I am one spoiled girlfriend...Oh well, probably, I finally met my match...

Some Updates

2006-04-25T21:18:00.000-07:00

Whoa... it's been more than a week since my last update...

Lots and lots of stuff happened and I decided to be under hiatus for the meantime...

Robbie and I fixed some personal stuff and I've been under major stress and a bit if depresion after he left for San Francisco that Monday...To make the short, after one week of discussion with my immediate family/extended family, the problem was finally fixed...Seriously, I never encounter such huge obstacle and through God's help and the power of prayer, everything went back to normal.

The first few weeks since Robbie and I became official, I've been through a lot already. I've received calls and text messages from girls claiming that they're going to take him away from me. Believe me, I though stuff like that only happens in movies and novels yet I did experience some confrontation which I proudly can say that I pretty much handled it with professionalism and with a hint of sarcasm! Oh, not to mention some Myspace and Friendster messages!...It's tough but heck! I'm tougher and I would definitely not give up my man just for some crazy whacko gals hoping that they can turn me down. BTW, it's been a month, and I'm looking forward for more....

Anyways, on the bright side, Robbie surprised me again. Oh boy, I just love when he does things like this. So he was here last last weekend right? I had to go to work that Saturday morning at 4 AM...Hadn't had any sleep coz he arrived 1 AM that day and we stayed up til I left for work. Anyhoo, I was about to leave at 12 noon but he said that I should wait 10 more minutes before going home. I was like "what????" You're telling me to stay at work while I am so looking forward in seeing you again??? Fifteen minutes passed by, my coworker started calling me that there's someone to see me. Guess who??? He never knew the place where I worked. There he is with Jireh holding a dozen pink roses!!!!!!!! and to think it's lunch rush!!!!! go figure, I was looking like a red tomato... I'm embarassed in a way when all eyes where looking at us yet really impressed inside.....You can hear the ladies say "Awww"...Oh men, I do really love the guy!....

Last weekend, I've been busy with the National Youth Day. We had a tiny presentation at church and everybody loved it....

Yesterday, I had an interview for PBS... yeah baby, this fellow blogger is gonna be featured on TV!!!! Seriously, I thought it's just gonna be some photo shoot and stuff but it has all this videos and microphones and lights.. and I feel like I just had an intervie with Oprah. John said it's gonna be shown worldwide.. I'll keep you guys posted on when it's gonna air on the PBS network. They decided to pick me out of several students on the waitlist for interview.

I told everybody that if they wanna get my autograph, they should get it now, while it's free coz next time I'm gonna be charging! LOL!

Two more weeks before the semester ends so I gotta be busy...

Then graduation is also coming up. I'm so excited!

I'm excited!!!

2006-04-12T14:04:00.000-07:00

Why???
Robbie is gonna be here this weekend...
Gees... I can't believe I still have my convincing powers intact! LOL

He might stay here til Monday...
As of our plans, prolly, we'll just stroll to the mall... Last time he was here, we went to 3 malls in 3 hours!

I've been spending a lot of time ebaying...it's fun bidding!!!

Oh well...I need to get a good car wash and excellent vacuuming sometime Friday....

Summer is just around the corner! Hello shorts and flipflops!

Update

2006-04-10T17:55:00.000-07:00

Hmmm....

Nothin much....same old routine that goes on every week... work and school...

I had an interview with this PBS lady and she wanted to feature my nursing experience...She said she'll be taking some photos and videos sometime next week.. Oh well...

The weekend was very interesting... I guess I can say that I am really into a relationship coz we spent hours arguing on the fone... Erase that.. it's not actually arguing, it's just a tiny tiny misinterpretation of some stuff...He said he's gonna try to be here this weekend for Easter if he finishes moving his stuff to his new apartment.....

I'm planning to go to San Francisco after graduation, that's around May 20s...I've been looking for cheap plane tickets coz I defintely not going to drive 8 hours. I wanna see the Golden Gate bridge and that famous zigzaggy roads in Bay Area...

We're planning to take a vacation together this summer, too...Prolly somewhere in Canada or New York....

I have 3 tests on Thursday so you know, I better start doing my studying....

i'M iN lOVE wITH yOU!

2006-04-03T17:59:00.000-07:00

There I was-
one minute getting to know you.
enjoying you, and wondering
where it would lead...
and the next, thinking about you all the time,
knowing that I never, ever
wanted to be without you!

I guess that's the way life is.
You're going along
doing your everyday things,
and out of the blue,
life surprises you
with something amazing-
something you had no idea
how much you wanted.
That's what you are to me, you know,
an amazing gift...
Falling in love with you
was something I hadn't expected,
but being in love with you
is something I couldn't stop,
even if I tried.

Message from the card I received from Robbie two days ago...

Update:
I've been very busy this past week. A month and a week from now, semester's gonna be over.. and you know what that means.... GRADUATION!!!! yey!
Tomorrow, will be having a gradfest and tickets for Coz Arena will be handed out for the graduates' guests. Then, I also have to buy the graduation regalias and have our graduation pictures taken care of....

My brother and I watched the All American basketball last Friday and Nick Cannon (fr the movie Drumline) performed during the half time. He was alright! he had a mohawk. He's alright... not that cute in person... Oh well, I don't really like him that much, I just wanna brag that I finally saw a Hollywood celebrity! Just kidding!

I have to go to the computer lab and have all my lecture notes printed...This one class, I'm taking has been causing me a lot of money for my ink cartridges! Gees, powerpoint slides!

I also have to update my citizenship status at the Social Security office...

Life is good!

Super Busy!

2006-04-02T21:01:00.000-07:00

I am super busy... with school, work, and with the boyfriend...LOL!

Have a great week!

Stole a Quiz from Jon

2006-03-30T13:13:00.000-08:00

I'm waiting for my next class so I decided to answer a few questions from this quiz taken from Jon's blog...

Take the quiz:
What sex dessert are you? *PICS*

strawberries
your classy...you like it nice...but simple...you know just what you want, where you want it...IN YOUR CHAMPAGNE!

Quizzes by myYearbook.com -- the World's Biggest Yearbook!

Sweetness of my Weekend

2006-03-27T19:17:00.000-08:00

Hi everybody.....
Last weekend has been a very very memorable one for me...for the very first time in my life, I felt the vulnerability of being a woman. My friends were the ones who keep on telling me that I have a very strong personality. According to them, it correlates why I've been single for a very long time, that personality scares men away. On the other hand, I don't really take the comment seriously. I am the eldest among my siblings and I tend to have this "superwoman" attitude that I can do everything, indeed, very independent...I never thought that one day, a man will come along that can break the toughness of my heart....

Robbie, the guy I met three months ago came here in San Diego for a visit. We've been chatting for hours and hours everyday since then. It came to a point that he decided that he's going to start courting me. And he did after a month of our endless chats. He left San Francisco Friday noon. He was stuck in traffic so the expected 8:00 PM became 12 MN. I cooked dinner for him, sinigang na baboy, he's favorite food. I also made some lychee/agar-agar juice for dessert. I've fallen asleep while waiting for him. I'm so nervous of course because, it was the first time I'm gonna see this person in flesh. It's just awkward that I've known almost everything about him through that short span of time and it's really weird feeling that he's actually gonna be here. Anyways, he called me that he's already at the 805 freeway so I directed him towards the route going to our place. He was driving this white Honda Prelude, I told him that we need to look for a parking space around the apartment complex. It was so tensed and shaking like crazy! He asked me to hop in the car so we could find a spot. I giggle a lot if I'm nervous trying to cover the shakiness of my entire being!....After 30 minutes, we found a space. Golly! He's actually here!!!
He's not good looking I will definitely say that..he's an average Joe that intrigues me a lot...I saw his pic in friendster and myspace but it's just different to see someone in flesh.
He did like my sinigang though. I dunno if he's just being nice or what but heck! I was so nervous still....
My parents told me to just ask him to stay in our place instead of checking in at a nearby inn.
So there, we sat at the opposite side of the couch...really really awkward moment there I'm telling you... he's staring at me and I can feel that I am starting to melt away. He moved next to me. He muttered the words "I love you". I was blushing like crazy! I can't even look at his eyes!... He then held my hand and kissed it. Awww....I kinda like it coz he was such a gentleman! very manly! hahahaha....
He muttered the words "I love you" for the second time and I told him to stop staring at me coz it was so uncomfortable....He was giggling because he said, I looked so cute when I'm nervous....Anyways, he moved closer towards me and kissed me. It was great! I then told him that I'm gonna go back to sleep and I'm just gonna see him the next morning....

The next morning....
He texted me...my dad called me on my fone teasing me that I need to wake up and cook breakfast....We went to eat some Vietnamese food coz he said he's craving for their Pho...Anyways, he's been telling not to be nervous. Oh my gosh! I was so embarassing coz I was so clumsy! I spilled the sauce all over the table! He was smiling and telling me how cute I am with my clumsiness!...
After our lunch, I finaly got over the nervousness...and I was back to being myself... the jolly and talkative Abby...
We went to the 4 malls!...He's such a gentleman, he opens and closes the car door for me...I feel like a realy lady when I'm with him...I never felt anything like this before even with my ex....He constantly kisses and holds my hand while were driving....
Around 5 PM that day, he asked me if we can go to the Albertson's grocery store before we go my churmate's birthday party. He asked me to look for something and left me... After several minutes, I heard them page me... "Paging customer named Abby, please proceed to Customer Service". Guess what???? There he is holding a dozen roses!!!!!! He's so sweet!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wasn't able to hold my feelings any longer coz the sign that I asked for actually happened!....He said "I love you",kissed me, and I kissed him back and said "I love you back!"....

Here's the funny thing though....everybody! I mean everybody! my relatives, my churmates were so intrigue with the guy I'm with....You can see the looks that just make me giggle everytime...

It was very sad when he left yesterday....

A long distance love affair...Am I gonna make it this time????
I miss him already :(

This is so nerve-wracking

2006-03-23T10:27:00.000-08:00

One more day........

I don't wanna think about it anymore...
So...yeah, I have one more test to go...

Brain drain.. that's what you call it...After spending 6 hours yesterday, here I am trying to extract everything out from my brain. Oh well....

I'm not making any sense here....

Got to go and grab some lunch....

Awww

2006-03-22T13:07:00.000-08:00

I had a very nice night last night plus a very good night sleep....
He serenaded me with all my favorite love songs as he plays the guitar...Awwwwww...By doing so, he just swept me off my feet.....

He sang while I snooze...how's that huh???
I hope this is it...May God send me the signs that he's the ONE...I think I've waited long enough and I deserve to be happy.

HE

2006-03-21T11:04:00.000-08:00

He makes me laugh...
He does simple things that just make my day complete....
He serenades me...
He whispers sweet nothings...
He makes me think of him all the time...
He makes me include him in all my future plans...
He makes me feel complete....
He gives me that tingly feeling everytime we talk...
He puts the smile on my face...

I never felt anything like this before....
Am I in love for the first time?????

I can't wait....He'll be here this weekend... He'll be spending 8 hours driving from San Francisco to San Diego...isn't that sweet???
I'm excited and I'm nervous coz I really have no clue on what to expect....

But I am really sure that this feeling that I am feeling right now is more that "LIKE".....

Psst

2006-03-20T20:28:00.000-08:00

My back hurts.....
Am I getting old or what?

Anyways, my aunt asked me if I could be a counselor for the upcoming Kid's Camp. It'll be sometime in July... If I'm not mistaken, it'll be July 24 to 28, the wee of my birthday. I would really love to go but I still need to check my schedule coz I might need to take some prenursing classes this summer.

I'll be back to school tomorrow! Yey, I guess... LOL
A month and a half more to go....can't wait!

Life is good!

Have a great week everybody!!!

My other side

2006-03-18T20:29:00.000-08:00

My friends and I went out yesterday for St. Patrick's day...
Eventhough I only ha 2 hours of sleep yesterday, I can't believe I still have enough strength left to last til 4AM this morning.

Gal pals, Chissa, Kate, and I went to Pacific Beach for some partying. PB is the place where most college students hang out. We reached the place aroung 11 PM and waited in line for an hour to get in. The place was packed! I had a great time! When the DJ played the song "My Humps" by Black Eyed Peas even made the party more exciting! Hahaha... I really can't help myself but to go with the beat everytime I hear that song no matter what I'm doing! LOL...

We left the place around 1:30 AM and hopped to a different place. This time, the bouncers allowed us to get in for FREE!!!! Yahoo!! We stayed there til they are about to close. We decided to eat at Denny's after we got so freaking tired of dancing. We chatted there for couple of hours and parted ways around 4AM. I still didn't go to bed after that. I chatted with someone til it was I think around 6 AM....I finally gave up took a snooze but around 7AM, my coworker started calling me asking if I can come in.

The last time I was out that late was 3 years ago when I used to sneak out of the house around 12 AM and just hang out with my friends.

I really had a great time last night. Twas my first time to go clubbing here in the US. I was just so curious that I tried it. I am not really into "night life" as most people know, I would rather stay at home and get all the sleep that I can have. It was just crazy coz I'm a bit paranoid about GHB's and stuff after learning it from my Drugs and Behavior class....Actually, those guys who were standing in front of us were smoking weed and gees! it stinks! We were teasing each other that we're already HIGH for just smelling that second hand smoke. I was a bit shy to dance on the dance floor but after a while I got used to it already. One guy started to dance with me, but later on, he creeps me out that we got out and moved to a different area inside the club. Then another guy started dancing with me again and he's alright. Then there came this cute tall Caucasian guy, he's really really cute! Hahahaha....So that's how you do sticky eye contacts huh????? LOL. Anyways, I didn't do anything silly and kept being a good girl....The experience was so much fun! I never realized that I'll be enjoying it this much... Twas a great exercise!!!! Bye bye calories after a few hours of dancing!....

Anyways, school will be starting again next week and I didn't do any reading assignments yet. Gees, I realized that I have three exams on Thursday and I just spent my whole spring break, chatting on the fone!...

Enjoy the rest of the weekend!

Happy Clover Day

2006-03-17T15:57:00.000-08:00

I'm going to wear green so that nobody's gonna pinch me! LOL
!

*cheers* to all Irish out there!

St. Patrick's

2006-03-16T18:47:00.000-08:00

Yeah! that's tomorrow.
My friend called me so we might go out for some Irish favorites! hahaha!
Well, people who loves drinking will have an excellent excuse to drink and be merry, intoxicating themselves with alcohol for one full day! *Cheers*

Spring break's almost over...

Food Craving

2006-03-14T17:13:00.000-08:00

I wanna eat some tortilla chips with spinach dip.....

I need to some major house cleaning sometime next week. How am I gonna do that??? I'm gonna busy with school and work again???? I am expecting a visitor so yah know...Half of me is excited.. the other half is so nervous! Waaaahhhhh

Spring break, BAby!

2006-03-13T18:34:00.000-08:00

Yes... it is...

but heck! my sched is hectic!

Mommy's Birthday

2006-03-08T13:55:00.000-08:00

It's my mom's birthday today.....
Happy Birthday, Mom! I love you!

If I'm nt mistaken, she turned 43 today...I really have no clue how old she is. It's funny coz when I'm asked about my mom and dad's birthdates, all I know were the month and the dates but the year??? nope.. I still have to call them up to ask them what year they were born. It's not that I don't care, I just really have a problem with my short term memory (LOL! excuses!)

Wow, I haven't blogged in a while... so what's new????

I received a letter from Palomar College and I will be starting the program on August 21st(hmmm is that right?. Anyways, I'm sure I'm going to have a busy summer coz I have to attend the orientation and I think I also have to take some prep classes such as pharmacology before Fall semester starts. Actually, I prayed to God asking for a sign coz I don't know which school to go. And guess what? He did show it to me!.. so there... no doubt I will be attending Palomar. I will be working my ass off, too....because I wasn't able to get any financial aid for academic year 2006-2007 because of my bachelor's degree so I need to save some money in order to lessen my school debt.

I will be calling the nursing office sometime next week regarding immunizations and also I need to follow up my admission to the school, turn in my transcript and get a school ID. Good thing it's Spring Break. I dunno if my friends and I are going somewhere because they're so darn busy.

I'm under this "job hunting" mode again. I would like to get a job related to having a Psychology degree. But nursing aide will also do.

I've been watching the first season of Pinoy Big Brother....I was just into Sam Milby lately (it started when I saw Close to You). To think that even my brother bought the freaking DVD coz of curiousity. It's very entertaining! Good thing it's not a waste....

Thanks also to Jezz for burning several OPM cd's for me....See how I miss the Philippines, I am so hooked! I don't listen to the radio no more for what's the latest R&B or hiphop songs...All I hear now are music from MYMP, Cueshe, Sarah Geronimo, Nina, Christian Bautista, Rachelle Ann Go, Eric Santos, and Piolo Pascual. I also looked online for Nyoy Volante's and Sam Milby's to add to my collection. Moreover, I love my roaming fone coz it reminds me of the Philippines plus all text messages I receive everyday from friends who never forget to say HI or maybe forward a really cute message. It's just great!

It's all good!

Commitment Phobic

2006-03-01T14:14:00.000-08:00

What is wrong with me?????
It's just that when someone is starting to be really really really close to me in a very romantic way, I'm starting to push that person away. I "think" I really liked the guy but sometimes, I just wanna get rid of the mushiness that has been happening, trying to ignore the person.

I guess, I'm scared to take my chances and trying to avoid the "pain" that may come with having a "real" relationship.

Or is this just part of PMSing????

Nah. I don't think so.

I need to fix myself huh?

1st day of March. The days are going too fast without me even noticing it. This is bad...I need to savor every single minute, hour, and day....coz life is short.

"Delight yourself to the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart"

Colour Everywhere

2006-02-25T15:30:00.000-08:00

I used to see in black and white
Never something in between
Waitin' on the love of my life
To come into my dreams
Everything in shades of gray
Never any blues or greens
I needed someone else to turn to
Someone who could help me learn to see
All the beauty that was waiting for me

You...you put the blue back in the sky
You put the rainbow in my eyes
The silver lining in my prayers
And now there's colour everywhere
You put the red back in the rose
Just when I needed it the most
You came along to show you care
And now there's colour everywhere

My life was so predictable
Never any mystery
But ever since you shined the light
All of that is history
Now I have a hand to hold
And a reason to believe
There's something in my life worth living for
I was hanging 'round just wishing on a star
To put the happiness back in my heart and

You...you put the blue back in the sky
You put the rainbow in my eyes
The silver lining in my prayers
And now there's colour everywhere
You put the red back in the rose
Just when I needed it the most
You came along to show you care
And now there's colour everywhere

I left those lazy days behind me
Never to return again
Now they're just a faded memory
'Cause baby it's so clear to see
The beauty that was waiting for me

You...you put the blue back in the sky
You put the rainbow in my eyes
The silver lining in my prayers
And now there's colour everywhere
You put the red back in the rose
Just when I needed it the most
You came along to show you care
And now there's colour everywhere

You care and now there's colour everywhere
There's colour everywhere
There's colour everywhere

Have a Great Weekend

2006-02-24T18:00:00.000-08:00

We're looking for a house. The owner will turn our apartment complex into condominiums and they gave us one year to look for a place or either buy the transformed condo.
The cost of living here in San Diego is way way WAY too expensive. So, we're still praying that God will help us to find a house that we can afford. I am willing to relocate yet most of the family members wants to stay here...

I'm just thinking if I can manage to work full time and going to nursing school full time. Most of my friends who's doing the program quits their job. But I can't afford to be jobless without any source of income. I mean, I have to contribute to the financial needs of the family, right? I need to talk to my parents about this issue. I will be getting my BA degree in Psych on May. I am starting nursing school on Fall. But if I have to give up nursing school and just find a decent job to support my family, am I willing to give up on that dream???? Or, is it better if I sacrifice a whole lot of my time to If ever I'm gonna be a selfish one, all I ask is two years free from any financial obligations because I also have to figure out how to support myself through that two years. But if I'm just gonna turn down my nursing opportunity, I will be the most responsible daughter and a sister providing financial support to the family. Am I making any sense here????

I better start a sincere talk regarding this...

Just thinking

2006-02-23T13:15:00.000-08:00

I haven't been posting coz I've been lazy....I bet that's one valid excuse....

I'm still busy with school and with my job.
I am working full time and going to school full time... Go figure how many hours of sleep do I get in one day???? I'll be lucky to get 5!
During the night, I keep myself busy with the fone... Another factor why I'm getting lesser and lesser sleep. I'm not complaining but it's so not helping me and I need to figure out a plan to do everything yet still satisfying my body's needs...

I broke up with my boyfriend last weekend. He didn't take it the way I thought he would. According to my friends, he was so pissed off and had been drinking too much since then. I know it's my fault why he's been like that. But I can't do anything about my feelings that I have to vent it out.

I called him two days ago to ask how things are going....He sounded so bitter but I was able to explain to him what happened. He understand me and we ended up still friends (I guess).. He's back to texting me again everyday which is a good sign. I told him, that if ever he visits CA, he's free to give me a call so we can meet up.

I guess, that was the only highlight of my week....

One lazy blogger

2006-02-21T11:00:00.000-08:00

Yup! I am one lazy blogger....

I need to make time for this huh?

Pardon the words

2006-02-16T11:02:00.000-08:00

What the freaking crap!

What have I been doing??????
I'll spare you the details....

Hitting on me?

2006-02-15T14:31:00.000-08:00

Remember I posted yesterday how my day went... I've been under that "topak" situation til I went to bed.
Due to it, another scenario had occured that I felt guilty about.

I need some male POV's regarding this... I really wanted to tell this dilemma to my dear male counter part, froggy buddy yet I didn't get any chance...For sure, he's gonna be reading this besides my other male readers...Dear other male readers, please feel free to respond..

Anyways, I am trying to send some signals to my "so called boyfriend" who is in the Philippines right now. He's gonna be leaving soon and prolly be around Greece coz he's a merchant marine. It was Valentine's Day right? Didn't greet him or whatsoever but sent a text message telling him that I'm having a hard time dealing with our situation. I did not say anything about a break up nor a "cool-off". It's just that I seldom reply to his text messages and I always try to ignore it. I'm worried coz if we break up, he has this tendency to undergo depression (I mean it's normal but this guy really takes everything seriously and I don't want him to think that I am brutally assaulting him, do u get what I mean?) He's gonna be sailing for a year and I don't want him to feel super depress and lonely coz I added the issue of the coolinf off system. He loves me so much! and I guess, I agreed to be his girlfriend coz he's been waiting for me for almost 10 years! I know that it's unfair coz I'm not in love with him....

Then remember this guy I met through a friend?
Yeah, I think I'm starting to fall for him...I don't want to cheat with my boyfriend that's why I need to get the strings unattached just in case that I suddenly realize that I am falling in love with guy2. I just met this guy a month ago yet I feel the connection...you know what I mean? He gives me goosebumps and weird heartbeats everytime we talk. He said he's willing to wait....

Here's the deal though...I am a novice when it comes to relationships coz I never had real one yet. I've known guy1 for sooooo long and I can really say that he loves me. I've known guy2 for a month and I can't I mean I'm still in doubt if he really loves me (I feel it's genuine though). I have a connection with guy2 and really really bored when I'm with guy1. I'm so confused...Am I being selfish here???? I can't keep both of them neither have one the other as my back up just in case the other doesn't workout, I know that... but heck! I think I'd rather be single coz I don't have to deal with this no more!....My bestfriends were telling me to stick with guy1 coz at least I have the clue how his mind works and stuff...compare for guy2 in which we're still in that "getting to know you" stage!....

Golly! can I just fall in love with one of my closest guy friends??? and hope that this guy friend will also fall in love with me???? I just wish that I can have access to that "EASY" button so I don't have to face this nerve wracking dilemma...

What is up? This is so weird coz I rarely get guys hitting on me. I mean, I do flirt every now and then.. but it's so weird when all of a sudden , guys are starting to hit on me. What I'm trying to say is Im not used to it and have no clue how to react...I don't want to have that snobbish image if ever I try to push them away. I need some tips on how to tell them in a nice way how to "get the heck out of my face!"..I'm just gonna quote what my friend told me "Abby, ang tindi...ang haba ng buhok mo!"

Happy Heart's Day

2006-02-14T10:59:00.000-08:00

Yeah.. that's pretty much it...

I am under the "toyo" mood since last night before I went to bed......

One Question

2006-02-13T19:45:00.000-08:00

One question I encountered today: "So what are you going to do tomorrow for Valentine's Day?"

The heck do they care!

Hahaha... I'm just kidding...I'm not gonna do anything special tomorrow aside from wearing red....I'll be in school and I have plenty of studying to do. Unless, someone's gonna surprise me with some cool stuff then that'll be really great!....

I'm so happy!!!!
It's weird.. but heck! I am happy!

I'm not even on "emote" mood

2006-02-12T18:50:00.000-08:00

I'm not on "emote" mood, Jovee! okay!

LOL

My siblings and I are planning to watch "Close to You" two weeks from now. It's nice to know that Tagalog movies are starting to be shown in movie theaters here in United States. Most of all, it's nice to know that the said movie will be shown here in San Diego! Isn't that great? Yeah, usually, they only show it in Northern California and Los Angeles. My Filipino friends are already talking about it and for sure it'll be so crowded!... It'll only be shown for a couple of days though but it's all good, right?

Speaking of Valentine's Day, I have a really weird lovelife....
It's just that the person I would really love date and I've been waiting for the longest longest time seems to not have any interest in me at all....I haven't seen him in ages! I mean, the last time I saw him was Easter last year...
Then I have this so called "boyfriend" yet it feels like we're not even in the relationship.. (that's on my part though)...I am not cheating or anything but I just wanna get out of the "relationship" coz I feel that it's getting nowhere...
Also, there's this guy of course who as of this moment makes me feel special in so many ways yet there are some issues that makes everything so complicated...

I feel that everything about my love life could have been better if my prospect do feel the same way about me then we get the chance to express it and just live happily ever after. Yet it's not that simple....

Oh well....

Heart's Day

2006-02-09T20:26:00.000-08:00

Hmmm... just thinking...

Bored

2006-02-08T13:47:00.000-08:00

Heck! I'm bored!

A few of my "inaanaks"

2006-02-07T16:45:00.000-08:00

Am I getting older or what???
I miss two of these kids....

Tintin with Ninang Abby

Caleb and Auntie Abby

Anton with Ninang Abby

Blogger

2006-02-07T10:37:00.000-08:00

I dunno if it's just me or everyone else...I've been checking my friend's blog from time to time but it seems like that this week, blogger has been down for a while...

Anyways, it's nice to know that it's up and running again so I can start lurking at my friend's thoughful entries :)

Glad to be back to normal. I told my boss to schedule me 32 hours a week but it looks like that I still work 40 hours a week although I'm only at work for 4 days. Like yesterday, I worked for 10 hours. It's crazy coz I still have to go home and study for my classes. I had a test this morning and I think I did alright. The thing about me though is if I work less hours and I get to get more time to study, I tend to slack off during the times that I am supposed to study. You know what I mean??? So this year, I will rather work more hours, so that I get to manage my time wisely coz I know that I won't be getting any extra spare time to lose just by staring at the computer monitor or snoozing under my warm comforter...So far, everything's stress free.

My brothers, my sister-in-law, and I went to see a movie last weekend. We wanted to see The Final Spear (Hmmm I dunno if this is the right title) but the movie theater only showed it for a week and that was last week. Anyways, we just watched Underworld: Evoulution and sneaked in at Narnia. We had the opportunity to do this since most people were occupied by the Superbowl so the theaters weren't crowded. By the way, the Steelers won... but heck! I still go for the Chargers! Too bad they weren't able to taste the Superbowl this year or the next years to come (Hahaha, see how pessimistic I can be with our own football team??)

What else????
Nothin' much has been going on lately.... the usual I suppose...

It freaks me out when people ask me if I found myself a man during my stay in the Philippines. Seriously, since I got back from there, a LOT of people has been asking me about it! Asking when am I gonna get married and stuff... What in the world????? My supervisor even asked me yesterday coz he said I looked so different since I got back and I have this really special glow goin... Another what in the world! I was just my usual self... Prolly, they just missed bugging and bothering me! Anyways, I'm alright coz I was able to construct a good defense for those comments....

I gotta bounce, the library is starting to get crowded!

Drugged up

2006-02-02T09:21:00.000-08:00

I just got off my first class and I can still feel the effects of Nyquil I took last night. My eyelids are so heavy...My head is falling... and my entire mind is drifting off..clueless to what my professor has been discussing.

I had this cough for more than a month already and I think when we went to Disneyland last Saturday made it even worst. It was so cold! (Since, I got back from the Philippines, I still wasn't able to adjust myself with the weather!)Anyways, I'll be bouncing to the library after I post this entry to take a snooze....Here's one of the rides that we rode trying to make a decent pose before a last nasty loop.

Disneyland 50th Anniversary

Splash Mountain

Revelation

2006-01-31T11:02:00.000-08:00

Sometimes, some things are just too good to be true.

I heard one revelation a few days ago and it made me think so hard that I thought will make my brain explode. It was so strong that it blew me away leaving me speechless.

"Err", "hmmm", "Ahmmm"...those were the words that I can only think of for a few minutes after the story has been revealed.

Is this a test or what?

What the heck! I need to take things slowly. No rush! No impulsiveness or whatsoever!

How am I doing right now???
I'm alright....I'm not gonna stress myself with this issue. Life is short and I have better things to do.

Tired!

2006-01-29T18:14:00.000-08:00

I'm so tired to post something.....

Do I deserve this?

2006-01-26T11:08:00.000-08:00

I don't know if I deserve this. I would be needing some male POV's regarding this matter.

Once, a guy cried trying to confess his love for me. I do understand that some men or rather men in general are not that open when it comes to showing their emotions. I guess, men these days are watching too much OPRAH and DR. PHIL that they're learning to open up exposing the contents of their amygdalas.

To tell you seriously, I am not really that comfortable YET when it comes to this issue but I do understand. Last night, I had the same experience and it just came out of nowhere. Our conversations were fine when suddenly, he just opens up and there you go, the fountain just keeps on flowing.

I feel that I don't deserve this kind of treatment. I would tell someone that I like him but I would never accept that a guy will cry just because that he's so deeply in love with me and would love if I'm gonna return the same "favor" with them. This is just too overwhelming for me to accept. I am just a normal, typical woman who would like to someday meet the love of my life.

I would really need to consult someone regarding this... It's so confusing me as of this very moment!

2006? My year???

2006-01-24T18:15:00.000-08:00

It's too early to say that...

It's just that when this year started, lot of unexpected things has been happening to me. What I mean is when it comes to my dreams, goals, and aspirations.

For all my beloved readers who knew what I went through about my roller coaster ride to nursing school, I appreciate your patience.. listening to my endless cries...

After talking to Robbie earlier today, I received a call from Grossmont College's Nursing Office asking if I'm interested to register for this semester's class. God knows how long I waited for this opportunity and here it is laid right in front of me. Guess what I told them? I declined the offer. Why?? The class started yesterday and I still need to catch up on things, do my med exams, my immunizations and other stuff. She did understand the situation so she just put my name on Fall semester's list.

I never expected I get the call so soon. I have plans and I'm not willing to start all over again. My parents supported me on this when I told them. If I accepted the offer, I won't be getting my degree in Psych on May and I'm still gonna be starting the program on Fall anyways.

It's just so amazing. Everything is just falling into their places...

Rescheduled Flight

2006-01-24T11:29:00.000-08:00

I was supposed to pick up my brother at the airport yesterday but his flight was rescheduled due to snow storm. Hopefully, he'll be here on Friday if the weather condition becomes better. He's staying at my aunt's place in Cavite. Poor boy, he's all out of money. Apparently, he's still jolly due to the fact that his vacation got longer.

Anyways, the whole family we'll be going to LA on weekend to celebrate my nephew's first birthday. Jireh needs to be here because we'll be staying at my Uncle's place and be visiting Disneyland. Thank heavens! After 6 long years, I will be finally stepping to Mr. Disney's place. My brother and I will be driving so I better prepare myself to congested LA. Hahaha. I'd rather pick this than to drive along EDSA which my froggy buddy suggested that he'll let me drive during my stay in PI. HECK NO! That's my final answer!

School is doing alright. I finally figured out what courses to drop and what to keep. I started working yesterday and everybody is happy to see me (Hmmm, really?)I am back on track, the usual Abby life.

Another Yey for me when I decided to think less about the current issue regarding my starting-to-bloom lovelife.

One more yey for me when one of my bestfriend is expecting! Another "inaanak" will be on the way....I did tell Noriel that she maybe pregnant when I was in the Philippines. She was so different and I just feel like there's something goin on with her. Heck! I'm right! She's happy and his boyfriend is happy....so that's enough for me to know that everything will be alright for her....

Oh.. I forgot, I need to get some lunch...Bye

Didn't We Almost Have it All

2006-01-22T19:31:00.000-08:00

Remember when we held on in the rain
The night we almost lost it
Once again we can take the night into tomorrow
Living on feelings
Touching you I feel it all again

Chorus:
Didn't we almost have it all
When love was all we had worth giving?
The ride with you was worth the fall my friend
Loving you makes life worth living
Didn't we almost have it all
The night we held on till the morning
You know you'll never love that way again
Didn't we almost have it all

The way you used to touch me felt so fine
We kept our hearts together down the line
A moment in the soul can last forever
Comfort and keep us
Help me bring the feeling back again

(Chorus)

Didn't we have the beat of times
When love was young and new?
Couldn't we reach inside and find
The world of me and you?
We'll never lose it again
Cause once you know what love is
You never let it end

Clearing of the Mind

2006-01-20T09:22:00.000-08:00

Thanks a bunch to Kuya Ariel.
He helped me clear up my mind about my so called "love dilemma".

I'm still on "vacation mode".
In short, a slacker.

I am pretty sure that I'm gonna have a very tough semester this time. Due to overcrowding at SDSU, I only got in to this one class from my wishlist. The rest...hmmm.. let's see... yeah I'm doomed!
I'll be in school TTH from 8AM til 8PM. Isn't that great! *yuck*

I enrolled in this class in which some of you guys will say "Darn Abby! you're weird!"
Heck! I'm not wierd. Listen...I am taking a class named Psychology of Human Sexual Behavior. Yup..heard it right!
I dunno if I would love taking that class or what. Everything about S-E-X is laid under the sun. It's like Sex Education made into Porn! Hahahaha.
I was like "GOLLY! MY VIRGIN EARS!!!!" What did I get myself into????
But hey! I'm gonna keep it! I can't really relate to the topics but I am so willing to learn and know stuff about it. See what happens when you ran out of "decent" classes to take?

I also two challenging class such as Neuropsychology and Cognitive Neuroscience. Then I have the Abnormal Psych which I think I'll enjoy coz I love mental illnesses!

Twelve units to graduate. That's my motto for this semester.

Have a good weekend to everybody!

PS> My nephew turned one today... and my "eyecandy" will be turning 30 tomorrow! :p

My year ender post

2006-01-18T20:12:00.000-08:00

Hahaha.. not right now...
Prolly tomorrow night.
I did nothing today. The stuff that were planned, were completely thrown down the drain. I felt sluggish and weak and tired and all I want to is to lie down and think.

I did iron my clothes and uniforms though. I decided to go back to work next week instead of the 1st of February. I'm not my usual self lately. Tons and tons of thoughts have been in my mind since I got back.

Plans about my future, my educational goals, my career, and heck! my lovelife.

I was never so open with my lovelife coz I know I never had a real one in 24 years!
Yet, I'm into this one for the very first time and I'm going ON and OFF if I wanted the strings or not....

I've been praying to God that if he's gonna be showing me the ONE it'll run smoothly. It'll be just one piece completing a puzzle.

I dreamt about this, a month before I left for PI. Never thought that I'm gonna actually experience this in real life.

Somebody came in my life last night. I don't know if it's some sort of temptation or what but he just makes everything all messed up in my mind right now.
I never thought that the qualifications I once jotted down in my diary about my ideal man truly exists in one person. But it actually did! Ok fine, we haven't known each other that long yet but as we exchange stories about life, I can tell that he actually does have all of it!

As of now, the set-up is to get to know more about each other. But according to him, he's willing to talk to my parents about asking their permission to court me. Isn't that sweet??? (That's number 2 on my list!)

I don't wanna be unfair and I don't want hurt anybody...
What am I gonna do????

Hmmm... bad girl

2006-01-18T10:08:00.000-08:00

Is it okay to date another guy????

Whoa, dating game... I'm not so familiar about it!

I suck!

Broke.. sooo broke!

2006-01-17T19:59:00.000-08:00

Here's my whining again...
Nah. I'm not whining ok?
It's just that I need to go back to work and start working my ass off. My bills are starting to pile up and all I've been doing these past days are slack off and sleep.

Spend $307 for my four tires. It was a good deal coz the tires I got were Michelin brand. I love Costco! I will be renewing my membership soon. Wholesale retailers are the best! But hey, I still love Walmart and Target!

Went to school today to buy my parking permit and textbooks. Darn! that's another $300.

Two things I keep in mind these days that helps me ignore my financial stress: financial aid and income tax return!

Life is great!

Sleep Maniac

2006-01-16T18:20:00.000-08:00

I've been sleeping like a maniac since I got here from PI.
I woke up at 1 PM today.

I need to get back on track. What I mean is when it comes to my sleeping habits. School will be starting on Wednesday and you know what that means.. Crazy days are here again.

I have to have my oil changed and tires changed tomorrow.

All I've been thinking is the Philippines. I'm planning to visit on 2008. Hahaha! It's funny coz I just got back and now, I'm thinking of going back again!

Well, I just need to be as busy as I can so that I won't be noticing any lonely days and nights.

I never thought that I'll be into this since I'm not in favor of this kind of set-up. But look, here I am. He's gonna be leaving, too on the 1st of February and we have no clue when are we going to hear from each other again. No text messages and no fone calls either. *sigh* I feel so blue....

My Vacation Summary

2006-01-15T15:10:00.000-08:00

December 24th and 25th
* Arrived at NAIA around 11:00 PM. Kat lost her two check-in luggages so we have to wait for a while to file for a claim. Got out of the airport around 12AM. Merry Christmas along the road to San Antonio, Zambales. Called my aunt an hour before we arrive to their house, they were all surprised! Arrived at SAZ around 4AM and never had any sleep.
* Attended church and everbody was happy to see us!
* Met up with my high school friends in the afternoon til 10PM
* Called it a day(s)

December 26th
* My best gal pal Karla picked me up for our batch picnic and she helped me organize my pasalubongs for the gang
* spent the whole day at the beach....went home around 11 PM
* called it a day

December 27th
* I was so bored!
* decided to go to the market. Very traumatic for me! NO EXCUSE ME's and I'M SORRIES! and very very wet...I didn't like it that much
* Bored again the afternoons! Sucks big time... Somebody texted me so got company
* Had a serious talk with someone and had my very first official date! Hahaha...where???? I'm not gonna tell you :p
* I was home around 9 PM... and called it a day

December 28th
* Very busy at church coz of the concert
* I was bored but got company later in the afternoon. Had bunch of chats!
* Attended concert that night. Invited my date and we went out with a close friend and ate out around 10 PM at the nearby restaurant. Karaoke!!! Sang a few songs and was put on a hot seat by my friend about my personal life
* Went home around 1 PM and called it a day

December 29th
* Spent time with my relatives in San Narciso....
* had overnight at the base... I was so dead tired that day...
* went home 6 AM the next day and slept til noon

December 30th
* I had company... went to my friend's house then bounced to Karla's place for lunch. We then decided to go to Olongapo to watch their fiesta.
* We ended up going to the Freeport and met up with the Torres'. Had dinner and went home around 10 PM.
* Called it a day

December 31st
* Family reunion! it was a blast!
* I left the dinner around 10PM to go to my friend's house for fireworks. It was a blast!
* On our way home, I started to feel so weird....Is some kind of romance starting to bloom here, I say?
* Got home around 2AM... Someone is trying to score! :p he didn't succeed though!

January 1st
* Picnic with my high school friends again. It was supposed to be an overnight but everybody was tired so we decided to leave the beach around 8 PM
* This day was memorable because I haven't seen my friend sooooo drunk before! He did weird stuff that cracked us up. I started to notice how nice Noriel was this day...
* I was home around 12 AM but we stayed outside the gate. I told him that nothing's gonna happen between us coz I'm not favor with this LDR thingie...he did asked me one kiss though. I said alright....
* We kissed....I then kissed him back... I got carried away when he whispered to me "I love you so much, Abby". It was so sweet!!!! He did swept my off my feet!
That night, I lost my first kiss!
* We were still under that MU thingie coz I really don't want to go into a commited relationship.
* We hugged for an hour until my cousin caught us!!! hahahaha
* I called it a night and we parted ways around 3 AM.

January 2nd
* Off to Manila...I was still dreamy!
* Kotong Number 1 happened
* I really wanted to tell someone about my experience that night...but it sees like there's no chance I could do it....

January 3rd
* Went to Tutuban. My favorite place in the Philippines! So darn cheap!
* Met with Froggy Buddy Jon and Devious Friend Jobilark

January 4th, 5th
* BORACAY baby!!!
* I injured myself at the Fly Fish!

January 6th
* Off to Manila
* Met with my high school friends again that night though I was so tired.
* Went out around 10 PM and went to Gerry's Grille. Had dinner because Noel will be leaving for KSA. My friends were asking me if I could spend the night with them in a hotel, I declined. Y? Personal reason. Noriel was upset
* Went home around 2 AM

January 7th
* Pampering day at MegaMall
* Met Kuya Ariel (finally! aka Kartoonista)
* Had dinner with him at the Podium
* Then Jen, Jireh, and I went to BagaBerde to see MYMP
* Took picture with Juris of course!!!!
* went home around 2AM

January 8th
* PEx EB!!!!
* we had lunch with Jethro
* Bowling with Kuya A, Jon, Jary, and Jeth
* Then coffee with Jobilark, Ivy, and Ada
* I rode MRT!

January 9th
* Malling.. that's what I did
* Watched Don't Give Up on Us... I love you Piolo
* Jen and Noriel spent the night with us

January 10th
* My brother went back to San Antonio with Noriel
* Jen and I went to Robinsons Galleria to meet Karla
* Did bunch of girls talk and shopping of course
* Met with froggy buddy Jon around 6PM
* Rode MRT again to meet Lowlah Jary and Ivy
* I spent the night all by myself................

January 11
* Pampering day again!!!
* Jen, Karla, and I went to 168. Did major shopping again...
* Noriel visited... gave him a dozen doughnuts....
* This day, I was officially off the market
* Had lots and lots and lots of cuddling!!!

January 12
* Did my last minute shopping with Jen and Sweets
* Didn't sleep at all!!!!

January 13th
* Kotong Number 2 happened!
* It's time to say goodbye..........

That's all Folks!

Under Construction

2006-01-14T22:39:00.000-08:00

I am so sleepy..
My blog looks awful.. I'll fix it later.. Good night!

I'm back

2006-01-14T11:40:00.000-08:00

I'm I supposed to sound excited????
I'm I supposed to sound happy???
I'm I supposed to sound sad?

I dunno...

I'm Up so Early

2006-01-10T16:43:00.000-08:00

Yeah, you heard it right! I was up so early
I have to register for my class Pacific time... I've been here at the computer rentals for about 2 hours already...It sucks! why??? Coz our freaking webportal at school is so freaking messed up! It's so slow and it keeps on telling that the page can't be displayed! I have one class that I needed so bad to graduate and it's closed already! I emailed the professor hoping that he'll give me an add code. I told him that this will be my third class from him and hoping that my loyalty will help me to get that add code. Hahahaha
Then, I still need to register for 4 classes yet, I only got one since I started staring at the monitor.
Oh please!!!! I just need 12 more units to graduate on May!
I am not considering the professors no more! as long as I could get in to 4 classes, fine with me. Hard or easy, doesn't matter! I just need that freaking 12 units!

I still have plenty of shopping to do before I leave.....Luv it luv it!

Few more days

2006-01-10T06:05:00.000-08:00

Time goes by so fast! next thing I know.. I'm back to the US

Just dropping by to say HELLO to my frequent readers...

I'm so bouncy!!!

2006-01-03T06:32:00.000-08:00

My schedule has never been open! I've been thinking of getting more sleep.

I wish I have the time to post what has been going on.
Sometimes things happen unexpectedly....Sometimes you think you know that you know what's gonna happen next but sometimes it does not end up the way you wanted it to be.

I'm kinda having a bit of LQ with my best friend...so that's not a good news...

Yet, I can still say that I'm happy because somebody makes me happy.......

We'll be in Boracay tomorrow!

Happy New Year!

2005-12-30T21:33:00.000-08:00

I'm greet everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

Too bad, I won't be able to post my year ender... oh well...Prolly when I get back from the Philippines...

A lot of things has been happening lately...
Someone's making me feel special right now and I'm enjoying every single thing about it. Enough said. :)

I miss the US already! to think that I hate driving but seriously, I miss driving! I dunno why...

Happy New Year!

To my Dear FANS!!!

2005-12-28T22:50:00.000-08:00

I know that you've been missing my cute and very interesting stories....

Good news....
I'm here in the Philippines... and enjoying every single bit of it!
So hot, but manageable....

That's all folks!!!

In a few more hours!

2005-12-22T13:56:00.000-08:00

Tick...tick...tick...tick....

Few more hours, baby!!!!!
I can't wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm nervous as well as excited...I think I need to go poop! LOL!!!

Two more days!!!!

2005-12-21T15:19:00.000-08:00

TWO MORE DAYS, BABY!!!!!

I'm getting there

2005-12-19T20:32:00.000-08:00

I'm trying to regain my strength... I've been sick since Thursday.
I feel like crap!
and I hate being sick!!!
stuffy nose, wheezing cough, very very bad headache, and aching body...

I think, I'll be carrying this virus to the Philippines! LOL

Christmas Wishlist

2005-12-14T20:34:00.000-08:00

I have to have one because it's necessary.
Something to let my relatives and friends know what to give.
I actually, had a hard time listing because I don't have anything in my mind when it comes to material stuff.
Seriously, I only have one thing in my mind for Christmas and it's not so buyable. It has something to do with my everday conversation with God. Something that I'm wanting since I was 8. If ever, He'll give that to me this year, then it'll be one of the best presents I could ever have in my entire life.

Anyways, I managed to make a list. Stuff that's so easy to buy, not to mention that it's all cheap! hahahaha!
Don't laugh coz it's not funny...Ok, prolly a bit giggling is permissible
*body pillow
*body pillow's pillow case
*Holiday socks, those thick ones used for sleeping
*scarves
*gloves/mittens (black, red, white)
*gift cards (VS, Bath and Body, Target, Starbucks, Coffee Bean)
*make-up brushes

I can't think of anything else...

The Amazing Race

2005-12-14T12:20:00.000-08:00

The Linz family, the winner of the Amazing Race 8. I am so rooting for them to win because they're so cool and they never, or prolly had the least arguments during the race compared to the other families. Besides the fact, that those guys were so cute and sexy and hot!....

Oh well, I had my CPR renewal class today. And of course, I ran out of breath doing all thoe breathing exercises not to mention the compressions that we have to do. I was glad coz it only took me 3 hours to finish the review, the test, and the actual. It's better than retaking the whole class for 8 hours. DAng! AHA keeps on changing some of the concepts and it's kinda hard to keep track of it, so confusing at times. But hey! I managed and it doesn't sound bad as it sounds like, I maybe just exagerrating a bit. :p

I had two finals yesterday. I did most of my studying the day before the test so go ahead and figure out how high my stress level was yesterday....I hope I did good because that was my last chance. I'm school free the rest of this week and two more final test on Tuesday. I didn't realize how hectic it'll be to pack for the stuff I need to bring. Then not to mention, those "padalas" that I'm trying to fix how am I going to fit them in my luggages. I'll be travelling with two ladies and it'll be hard to carry heavy bags. I also need to check how heavy my stuff are going to be. Gees!!! so much stuff to do plus thinking about my finals are enough reasons to pop my brain out! Then there are also these "bilins" that I need to buy for them. Am I complaining now????? nah... just sharing....
Seriously, I have to be done packing by this weekend meaning I also need to be done shopping. I have Christmas parties to attend to and it'll be hard for me to procrastinate since we'll be leaving very early morning.

It's all good and life is great!

Copied without copyright

2005-12-13T19:28:00.000-08:00

Found this one from one of the bloggers and copied it. Pardon me, I'm just bored... :)

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NAME THE FIRST 20 PEOPLE OFF THE TOP OF YOUR HEAD...
1) Piolo
2) Bong
3) Chissa
4) Karla
5) Jen
6) Noriel
7) Roderick
8) Secret guy 1
9) Secret guy 2
10) Rochelle
11) Ate Cynthia
12) Caleb
13) Lenlen
14) John
15) Marianne
16) May
17) Boying
18) Molynd
19) Nainah
20) Richard

Don't CHEAT by going back and changing the person you wrote down!

How did you meet 13?
Lenlen -I met her when we we're kids at church. Her mom was one of the deacons in our church and we ended up growing up together although she's 3 years older than me.

What would you do if you had never met 5?
Jen - my high school madness won't be a success! she's one of my bestest friends

Have you ever liked 3?
Chissa - Heck yah!... we always do crazy stuff together...

Would 4 and 11 make a good couple?
Karla and Ate Cynthia... hahaha.. I don't think so. As far as I know they're both straight and ATe Cynthia is married already.

Would 1 and 7 make a lovely couple?
Piolo and Roderick. I DON'T THINK SO... Piolo is MINE!

On a scale of 1-10 how cute is 14?
John - not that I'm mean....-10

What language does 10 speak?
Rochelle - English and Tagalog

Who is 8 going out with?
Secret guy 1. I don't know... last time I heard from him, he was single.. I don't know if he's anyone right now...

Is 9 someone you would date?
Secret guy 1. Hahahaha... In my dreams... I would love to.. but it ain't going to happen.. that's one of the impossibles in my life.

When was the last time you talked to 18?
Molynd - on the fone??? hmmm.. a year ago.. but I was able to chat with her through friendster chat a month ago.

What is 1's favorite band?
Piolo - heck! no clue.. but I am willing to know more stuff about him though

Does 2 have any siblings?
Bong - yup... want me to enumerate all of them????

Would you ever date 7?
Roderick - hmmm.. tough one.. he's such a nice guy... we'll see...

Is 15 single?
Marianne- nah.. happily married with one baby boy

What is 4's middle name?
Karla - Mendoza

What is 2's fantasy?
Bong - to be married with me! hahahaha.. I'm just kidding.. I though we're talking about my fantasy... Seriously, I have no clue but heck! I am so willing to know about it!...

Would 7 and 19 make a good couple?
Roderick and Nainah - hmmm.. don't think so..

Whats 16's favorite color?
May - I have no clue

What school does 6 go to?
Noriel - PMMA

Where does 9 live?
Secret guy 2. Philippines. enough said

Would you make out with 1?
Piolo - I am so looking forward to it!

Are 5 and 6 best friends?
Jen and Noriel - friends not best friends

What is your history with 20?
Richard - hahahaha....my long lost puppy... oh mah bad... my unending puppy love...let's forget about that.. he's happily married

Do you like 17?
Boying - hahahaha....of course I like him. but like a brother... hmmm.. hope this blog is unaccesible to him.. for sure he's gonna tease me!

I'll be Home for Christmas

2005-12-13T19:00:00.000-08:00

I’m dreaming tonight of a place I love
Even more than I usually do
And although I know it’s a long road back
I promise you

I’ll be home for Christmas,
You can plan on me
Please have snow and mistletoe
And presents on the tree

Christmas Eve will find me
Where the love-light gleams
I’ll be home for Christmas
If only in my dreams

I’ll be home for Christmas,
You can plan on me
Please have snow and mistletoe
And presents on the tree

Christmas Eve will find me
Where the love-light gleams
I’ll be home for Christmas
If only in my dreams

Sooooooo in the rushing mood

2005-12-12T18:12:00.000-08:00

Yup, I am...OMG! I AM!!!

A Prayer for Every Year

Do you remember me?
Long ago on bended knee
I prayed to you
With childhood fantasy
Well I’m all grown up now
Can you still help somehow
I’m not a child
But my heart still can dream
Please hear my prayer tonight
And help me do what’s right
Not for myself
But for a world in need

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And every man would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end
This is my prayer for every year

May kindness rule our lives
Not just the strong survive
Sweet tears for all
Thousand years gone by
This is the world I pray
We will share someday
Let me begin by reaching out my hand (my hand)

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
Every man would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end
This is my prayer for every year

What is this illusion called
The innocence of youth
Maybe only in their
Blind belief will we ever find the truth
No more lives torn apart (torn apart)
That wars would never start (never start)
And time would heal all hearts (hearts)
And every man would have a friend (have a friend)
And right would always win (always win)
And love would never end
This is my prayer for every year
This is the prayer I hope you hear
This is my prayer for every year

Woohoo!

2005-12-08T17:40:00.000-08:00

I'm back!
I mean I was able to catch up with the class I've been talking about. I really studied extra extra hard to get this test almost perfect so it could pull my grade up. And the good news, I DID!

After the test, I ran out of strength and it gave me a very bad headache. Don't worry, I am fine. I feel so awesome that I don't have to take any pain reliever. This is so great!

Finals will start next week and I have to some serious studying this weekend.

Actually, my friends called me up earlier asking if I wanna see a movie with them. I told them that I'll pass because I don't feel good physically and I have to wake up at 3 AM tomorrow morning.

I'd rather "suffer" for these coming weeks due to study and work load. At least I have enough reason to celebrate like a freaking lunatic when I get to the Philippines. Two more weeks baby! and I'm off to have fun! (hopefully). Can't you tell how excited I am???? :p

Funny thing happened in school today...
I am used to seeing butt cracks, I am talking about women. For sure, women out there will agree to me that sometimes women tend to wear low-waisted pair of jeans that sometimes show off what's under there, right? This time, it was just so weird to see a guy's butt crack. Hey! I'm not checking him out or anything. He just sat right in front of me and I , unfortunately have seen it. No malice or whatsoever. All I can say, IT WAS SO FREAKING NASTY!!! EWWW...EWWW...EWWW.

If it's Piolo Pascual's butt crack, I'll be happy to zoom my eyes in to take a closer look! but it isn't him and gees, it was so unpleasant!

Darn! I better find a different seat next time, I think I'm gonna throw-up!

That's all folks! Enjoy the weekend!

This weather makes me sick

2005-12-06T17:38:00.000-08:00

Since I had that flu shot, I felt more vulnerable to this weather. Or is it just me??? or is it just the extreme changes in season????

I am so cold!!!!
I even had a sinusitis attack while walking around campus, I mean a milder version of brain freeze but with your sinus instead of the brain.

Or maybe, I am losing my cushions!!! LOL

Oh well...

One more lecture day!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so excited!

Anyways, I'm just wondering if you guys can help me pick good books to read. I need to bring prolly 4 books that I can read in the airplane. It doesn't matter what kind of genre, as long as it is interesting and not BORING!!!! Thanks

It's nice to remember

2005-12-05T18:06:00.000-08:00

Whenever I Call You Friend

Whenever I call you "Friend", I begin to think I understand
Anywhere we are, you and I have always been, ever and ever
I see myself within your eyes, and that's all I need to show me why
Everything I do always takes me home to you, ever and ever
'N now I know my life has given me more than memories, day by day, we can see
In every moment there's a reason to carry on

Chorus:
Sweet love's showin' us a heavenly light, never seen such a beautiful sight
See love glowin' on us every night, I know forever we'll be doin' it
... right

Whenever I call you "Friend", I believe I've come to understand
Everywhere we are, you and I were meant to be, forever and ever
I think about the times to come, knowin' I will be the lucky one
And ever our love will last, I always want to call you "Friend"

An' now I know my life has given me more than memories, day by day
We can see, in every moment there's a reason to carry on
doin' it, doin' it
Sweet love...

(You're the glowin' light in my life, source of pride in my life)
(Everything I do takes me back to you, whenever I call you friend...

Postscript:
A song that reminds me of someone...

More stuff

2005-12-04T20:08:00.000-08:00

Actually, I'm supposed to buy more stuff for my cousins and aunties/uncles in the Philippines, but I told my mom that I'm broke already....
She was nice, and she bought some stuff for some of them and she told me that I have to buy the rest. Well, that's good enough for me.

When we drop by at one of our churchmate's store, she told me that she's going to give me some stuff that I can give to our church members in the Philippines... She's such a blessing and for sure, all the church members there will be so happy!

Couple weeks left, and I am so excited.
I might do more shopping this week!!!!
It's all good...I get to spend EXTRA once a year, it's all about giving, and it's the thought that counts...

Brrr...so chilly outside!

I'm fighting

2005-12-02T18:32:00.000-08:00

Yeah, I've been battling with this flu...
I worked for 10 hours today and prayed that the symptoms will not get worst....Unfortunately, I might have shared some of my virus with our customers, and to think that we're so busy today...Not my fault, right?
I can't leave work early coz we're short-handed so there I tried to be heroic as I can be...(I can't wait to take my vacation!)

Have a nice weekend!

Achoooo

2005-12-01T21:28:00.000-08:00

I think I'm gonna be sick....

I had a flu shot yesterday and last night I woke up at around 3 PM, sneezing like there's no tomorrow.

And right now, I am starting to show flu-like symptoms. I can't be sick!!!! I have finals coming up and heck! I have to freaking renew my CPR card.

Aarrgh!!!

End of the Month

2005-11-30T18:18:00.000-08:00

Whoa! that was fast....

The next thing we know it's already 2006!!!

What the heck!

2005-11-29T19:36:00.000-08:00

Yeah...yeah...yeah....I don't feel good when I'm broke! Can't you tell that it's the end of the month and it sucks to know that you're running out of money...How I wish that living paycheck to paycheck will be over soon, yah know what I mean????

It's really hard stretching the money!
Yet, it's funny to think that before I receive my paycheck, it's already gone. Bills piling up! OMG! If I'm gonna stress out about this, heck! for sure I'll be growing more and more gray hairs!

Few more days and Fall semester's ending. On the contrary, as Christmas season draw nearer, I am RESPONSIBLE for working extra shifts----> tons of presents to buy for my growing family...

By the way, I did a mini online shopping yesterday coz I heard on the radio that yesterday was the Black Friday for online shoppers like me. I found several stuff at OVERSTOCK.com that sooooooooo cheap, and it doesn't matter how many stuff you buy... you only pay $1 for shipping... 'Twas a good deal... At least, I was able to cross out names from my list.

Online shopping is starting to be a hit this year.. it's easier, cheaper, and saves you time to look for the stuff that you wanted to buy. As you can see, I am now a consistent online shopper... guess what my favorite sites to visit? Amazon.com, ebay.com, shopzilla.com, and overstock.com

Miss You

2005-11-26T15:09:00.000-08:00

Miss You
by MYMP

Miss you…

Everyday and every night, this feeling I’d fight
Try as I might but I won’t win, I surrender, I’d die
You are winning here alright

Every morning when the sun would shine on me
I’d flash a smile but deep inside
I feel so sad and lonely
I need you here and now

I miss you
It’s crazy to pretend that I don’t think of you
The more this feeling just seems to grow and grow

I miss you
Oh how much longer can I hold on to
Maybe you can come and tell me that you miss me too

Miss you…

All I want is for this love to last forever
You walked away, never came back, oh I tried to recover
I can’t bear it boy alright

When I hear a song that we had used to share
I’ll try as I might to hide the tears, and when the pain is over
I’ll wish that you are near

I miss you
It’s crazy to pretend that I don’t think of you
The more this feeling just seems to grow and grow
I miss you
Oh how much longer can I hold on to
Maybe you can come and tell me that you miss me too

Miss you…

Early BIrd

2005-11-25T20:34:00.000-08:00

My brother and I were out of the house at 5AM.
I'm telling, if I'm not leaving for the Philippines this December, I might be one of the shopping freaks outside Best Buy or Fry's Electronics at 3 AM. Yesterday, I checked out the major stores who'll be having this giant after thanksgiving sale. I could have bought a laptop, a 7.0 megapixels digital camera, and an Apple Ipod for 500 bucks! Super crazy savings! yet I have to save for the trip...

These were just the unusually cheap stuff that I bought.
* Harry Potter 1 DVD $5
* Harry Potter 2 DVD $5
* Harry Potter 3 DVD $5
* 12 bags of Hershey's kisses $15
* 4 pc luggage set $49
* red cardigan $12
* 3 pc pajama set $12

I haven't been to the mall yet... I'll prolly do that this weekend...

I can't believe that my list is getting longer every year!...It's all good and shopping is fun...Well, this season is where the most exciting shopping takes place. You're definitely not shopping for yourself but for others...Isn't that great?

I might put up the Christmas tree tomorrow, too!

PS.. My brother's upset coz he lost his wallet..

PS2.. There were still plenty of left overs from last night! Lotsa lotsa food!

Happy Thanksgiving!

2005-11-24T17:12:00.000-08:00

Yum! dinner will be served later...
I'm done cooking. I came home from work at 3 PM then I had to cook. I cooked the Alfredo fettucine, turkey gravy made from scratch, wonton spinach soup, and mashed potatoes.

I'm just relaxing right now coz somebody called asking me to check something out yet I can't actually find the stuff. :p

I am so ready for the after thanskgiving sale tomorrow!!!

Long Weeeeekend!

2005-11-22T20:02:00.000-08:00

Heck yah it's long!
I had my last class today and school won't start til next Monday! Isn't that great?

Another exciting story coz another friend of mine and Chissa's will be joining us in the Philippines. We've been trying to do our itineraries earlier but we're so darn excited that all we did was plan for where to go for the After Thanksgiving Sale.

I'm so hyped up right now and I can't do anything about it....and it's not caffeine. The thought of counting the days before our trip makes me jump up and down.

Argument-filled day

2005-11-21T19:18:00.000-08:00

I want to share what happened today at work. I had two! TWO!!! freaking discussions... one from a freaking stupid customers, another from a freaking stupid co-worker. Pardon my vocab, it was just so freaking stupid!

But before I do that, I have to do my homework first. I have no clue if I have the time post it tonight but I am sooooo into sharing my screamings!

Do I really have to post the details???
Oh well, I don't. But imagine me a quarter inch close from screaming to those idiots (meaning the customers).
Then imagine me, arguing with my coworker( meaning the other manager). Heck! I haven't raised my voice in my entire McDonalds career (LOL). Well, I survived the whole 8 hours. Thank God!

Speaking of the phone... this one is addressed to my dear froggy buddy. Don't you know that one of my friend was ripped off through Ebay???? She wanted to buy the phone for 600 bucks. She later sent the money to the seller through Western Union. OMG! It was a freaking scam!... She never got the phone plus wasted 600 bucks for nothing!... Poor dear....

Christmas Wishlist

2005-11-20T22:12:00.000-08:00

Yeah, right! Dream on!

My mom and I went to go turkey shopping. Gees, we never found one weighing less than 10 pounds! Then we looked for an "outfit" for Sunday. Wonderin' what the occassion is? we'll having our annual family picture. This time 2 members were added...I'm so excited...

I've been thinking of what to cook for Thanksgiving. I'm not sure if my mom will do the roasting... prolly she will. I am scheduled to work so I'll be home a bit late. But I told her that I will make the mashed potato (I've seen this recipe on TV, and it really tasted so darn good, not an ordinary mashed potato. Then I'll also make chicken fettucine. Then as requested, I'll make my own version of wanton soup. For all of you who doesn't know, I love cooking for my family. Since I'm on a so called "dieting" I try to make sure that all my frustration from eating will be given to my family by feeding them. I'm just kidding....cooking is really one of my hobbies.

Good night

Sleep Deprived

2005-11-19T18:40:00.000-08:00

<---- my favorite scene...I'm a Harry-Hermione fan yet being an HP reader, seems like it'll end up Ron-Hermione... oh well...

Unbelievable!
Guess what? my brother went to the theater prolly and hour and 15 minutes early coz we thought there's gonna be a long line for sure. We're so right yet we underestimated it. Why? We had a hard time looking for a parking spot. Seriously, I never experienced this before. We went round and round still plenty of cars were roaming around with us, too hoping somebody will pull their car out of the spaces.It took us 20 minutes to freaking find a space plus it was quite a walking distance. Not bad for a "burn-the-calories" gal like me. When we got to the theater, deng! the line was long already! The good thing, since there's only the two of us together, we didn't had a hard time to find the perfect seat and to tell you the truth, we got our FAVORITE seats where we can freely put our feet up! and to make it even better, the theater that I booked the ticked from was DIGITALIZED! isn't that so awesome! you can really feel the intensity of the movie!!!

Speaking of the movie,
'twas nice...bit choppy for a reader like me of course. Not bad...and the three youngsters were so cute! Gees, Victor Krum was so hot! Cedric Diggory looks a bit dorky yet he looks so adorable. Too bad, he died. I'll rate the movie 4 and half stars out of 5. Can't wait for the HP and the Order of the Phoenix where Sirius Black is going to die. The book/movie is starting to get darker huh? Oh well, that's the way it is...

I am so sleep deprived. I only had a total of 6 hours of sleep for two days. I can barely wake this morning and I was dragging myself out of the bed. I can barely open my eyes at work and my brain isn't working right. We are supposed to go to a surprise birthday party today but I can't and I will not try to drive like these. I will definitely fall asleep behind the wheels. I decided to take a quick nap (when I mean quick that's a minimum of 2 hours). I'm feeling better now....

End of November is coming so fast I forgot that my CPR license will expiring this month. Now, I'm a hurry to schedule a renewal test and trying to fit it in my very very hectic schedule for this month! Ayy! that sucks big time!

Enjoy the rest of the weekend!

***Interesting Fact***
Nicole, one of the Pussycat Dolls (the lead singer in the Video ) is 1/3 Filipino. I was browsing the web coz she really looks so familiar. I'm right she was the one of the Eden's Crush singer who won WB's Popstars. Way to go Filipinos!

Goblet of Fire

2005-11-18T18:17:00.000-08:00

Yeah!
I'll put my frustration aside and enjoy the night...my brother and I will be watching Harry Potter tonight!...

Don't care that I won't be getting enough sleep...Heck! Harry! Harry! Harry!

Firing of my Neurons

2005-11-17T18:14:00.000-08:00

I have one class that makes me sad. I am all messed up with my tests. What the heck is wrong with me? Am I losing my neural connections???? =(

He makes me smile

2005-11-16T16:15:00.000-08:00

According to what I'm studying right now, we tend to like those who are near to us...yet, he's located at the other side of the globe...

Is this a crush???

Yeah... I would say that this is just a crush...

No wonder!

2005-11-15T17:49:00.000-08:00

This post is a bit related to the one posted earlier... Engagement rings were on SALE!...Have you guys ever been to an engagement ring store?????

I haven't, and I'm just wondering how it feels like...Ever saw the movie "Sweet Home Alabama"? yeah, something like that would be WOULD BE really really really great!...

Speaking of proposals, my favorites include Chandler's and Monica's engagement on Friends, sounds cheesy but I also like the one with Adam Sandler and Drew Barrymore on The Wedding Singer (want me to sing the song?), what goes on top of my list is the real one with the Ludy's, the authors of the book when Dreams Come True.

Switching gears here....
As a FRIENDS fanatic,I officially completed all season of Friends today. Got a good deal, too for the last 2 seasons coz it was on sale for 19.99 and 27.99 respectively. I am left with only 2 collections to complete, Harry Potter and Lois and Clark. Other than that, I'll be spending my time browsing at the DVD section once a month searching for DVD's on sale.

Few more weeks!!!! I'll be home soon!

Engagement Ring

2005-11-14T17:38:00.000-08:00

I just thought about this coz earlier today at work, I've noticed that a few of our regulars were wearing engagement rings. Prolly, several guys this month popped the question. Men! their rings were huge, I was blinded! Hahahaha...
I know someone who proposed last Friday...

It is because of the weather??? or maybe the special season coming up????

Whatever that is, the feeling that comes when someone special to you comes up with one knee in a very unexpected place in that very unexpected moment with a sparkling ring on their hand is one of the most amazing experience I am so dying to have...

Ay! I better get of this topic coz I feel so mushy...

My nephew

2005-11-12T18:11:00.000-08:00

Gosh!... He's so freaking cute!... I hope he walks soon. Can you believe that he's only 9 months and he crawls like a lunatic...He's so funny and he brings so much joy in the family. Last night, they (my bro, sister in law, and Caleb) were here. I am usually snoozing by 9 PM coz I have to wake up at 3 AM the next day. But heck! I stayed up til they went home at around 11 PM. Not getting enough sleep didn't bother me at all. He loves to giggle and touch your face. It's just so awesome.

Hah! I didn't mind having one pimple today due to lack of sleep. I really have no clue, but I'm telling if I get less than 6 hours of sleep, for sure, I'll wake up with a zit...

It's so dark outside when it's only 6 o'clock. I am not really into this kind of season because days are shorter. I prefer longer days coz I get to do more things outside the house. Now, when it's dark, I am so lazy to go out and to think that I suck (not really suck, not my fave I mean) driving at night coz of the glare and flashing lights. I am planning to but new eyeglass frame in the Philippines hoping it'll be cheaper then get new lenses when I get here. Frames here are so freaking expensive...plus the lenses with special effects and stuff rips me off!...Suck! but gees, it's a necessity!

I am down to my last pair of contact lenses and I'll prolly stick to my glasses for a while coz I'm broke! Hahahaha! I'm so stupid that I can't even afford to buy new sets...Oh well, it's all good...

I'm hungry... wonder what'ts for dinner... Ciao!

T.G.I.F

2005-11-11T14:18:00.000-08:00

Stupid me...
I didn't know that it is holiday today...I salute all the Veterans and admire their bravery!

Anyways, my plan of going to the bank after work is cancelled coz of the this holiday. I have several transactions to do and needed to talk to a person face to face because aside from those transactions are bunch of questions.

It's Friday I know but I am left with reading assignments. I haven't been out in a while. It's fine with me, coz I think, as I get older, I prefer getting sleep instead of spending money by going out. It's really weird coz since I reached that freaking quarter of a century, everything changes...My friend was right...Now, I know most of the things I want. I'm beginning to be less fickleminded. You know what I mean? I know exactly what I want and how I want it to be. Weird. For instance, sleeping wise, I know exactly how am I gonna position myself to get a good night sleep. I think I am starting to become the master of trial and error but this time, there's less error. It's fun yet I am so missing the aggressiveness of being an 18 or 21 year old. Before, heck I car about how many hours I sleep. I even have the guts to stay up all night doing nonsense crap. Now, I know how my body will feel after sleep deprivation and I pretty much doesn't like its effect. Is this really a sign that I am moving on towards a different phase of life???? One more thing that is really really weird is how I am annoyed with high school kids who feels like they know everything about the world. Seriously, it just pisses me off. Oh gees, I sounded like an old maid! <----- this scares me the most!

Life is full mysteries waiting to be discovered.
No matter how weird life can be, we should always enjoy life 24/7.

Have a great weekend!

What have I been doing?

2005-11-09T18:47:00.000-08:00

USS NIMITZ
My brother, Asher arrived yesterday at 9:00 AM at the Coronado Bay. He was gone for 8 months in what they called WestPac (West Pacific). He was on that USS Nimitz carrier for months... can you imagine how boring that can be???? All you see most of the time is the big blue ocean. It's nice to know that he's back home. Moreover, I can't believe that he enjoyed it. Probably because he got to see other places such as Dubai, Hawaii, Australia, and Hong Kong. The most interesting part though was the the "pasalubongs". Hahaha...
I've ditched my last class yesterday to meet with them for lunch. My mom was the only one who was able to see him arrive at the port besides his wife and son. I wanted to go but I can't ditch my first 3 classes that day because midterm is coming up.
We also had a nice famiy dinner afterwards. It's a nice feeling that the whole family gathers around the table chitchatting about how's it going....

COMPULSIVE (???) SHOPPING
Is it??? I would define it as my "pasalubong" shopping.
Sunday afternoon, my mom and I went to Mervyn's. I thought I'm not gonna spend anything. Yet, knowing that there's this huge SALE plus the coupons that I have on hand, I went crazy. Fifty percent off plus my coupon which is another 20 % off totals to 70% off!!! Who can't say NO to that huh???? I bought several stuff for my friends.

We went to Big Lots last night after dinner and I saw several stuff to buy for my godson and god daughter. It was a closeout sale and I've got great deals with the toys. Then also saw couple of stuff to give to some of my friends. Also, I also bought more stuff for the church kids, I'll be using those as my Christmas giveaways.

Then later this afternoon, I dropped by at Old Navy just to check whatever they have on sale. I was supposed to buy stuff for the Philippines but I ended up buying stuff for myself. I won't feel guilty this time because I deserve to have it...why??? I've noticed when I was in the fitting room, that I dropped a dress size! WOOOHOOOO!!!!! All the sweating that I've been doing the past couple months finally paid off!!!!

PAIN IN THE BUTT
I went to see my orthodontist Monday morning. What the heck! My appointment time was at 8:30 AM, I ended up waiting 45 minutes which also means that I'm so freaking late at work. I was so pissed that I snapped at the receptionist asking them how long STILL was the waiting time. She checked the list and she told me, few more minutes. FEW MORE MINUTES????? Are you kidding????? Finally, they called my name up. The temperature went down a bit when the ortho told me that I can stop wearing the tiny elastic. That's a relief. BUT, she told me that I have to wear another elastic on the opposite side to fix my chewing. *bah* Thought I can get away, but here's another elastic bugging my right side jaw. Oh well, no pain no gain.

BRAIN OVERLOAD
Again, for the nth time... another brain overload!
*sigh* one more month and the semester's over. "Abby, just hold on! You'll make it!"

FINALLY
I finally applied for graduation. I'll be graduating May 2006, everyone's invited! :p
Hope to pass it with flying colors! :)

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